treeple

i was meant to write.

2009-11-03T23:14:00.018+08:00

so, i put up this photos first, without even wrote anything. haha. how stupid, but i know you guys did enjoy these photos huh. anyway...let's begin.

This kitten me and fatin saw on the way to nazri's house at Kampung Arang. its really weird how this kitten sat at the perch of the stairs. and..mind you, its very high for the kitten..
oh well, move along...

ooooohhh, i love these! my late grandpa use to buy these for me. and i got all excited eating and chewing these chocolates. after im done eating those, my very goodlooking-i miss him-loving grandpa tie rubberband through those holes and make me wear it against my eyes.
and i look like a ninja.
which is pure awesome-ness, that point of a time.
i look so cool, nice eye wear made up of chocolates wrappers done by my grandpa.
.....i miss you yayi. :(

and here i am, about 15 years later.. rememberance of my yayi..
i'm a ninja. :)

told nazri and fatin about it, they thought the idea was cool, that they decide to take a photo with those wrappers too.
three-some ninja!

:))

This is Nazri's cat.
His real name, or rather..fierce name is call TIGER.
while, his nick and rather not-so-fierce-name is call CHEKMONG.
LMAO!

so me and the anchings cycle our way through east coast park till we reach the makan place which were located near the end of the beach.
well, its a famous place for satays and seafood there. its was such an awesome way too end our tiring and exhausting work out by cycling and eating our way through. haha.
i ate mee soto and shared cockles, chicken heart satay, fried chickens with those anchings.
its was, really...an awesome moment.
:)))

here is nazri. before he ate.

this is fatin. before she ate.

here is nazri. AFTER he ate.
(look at the difference.)
lol.

FML.
my face is so freaking ugly that i look like the wok bottom.
OK NOT.
haha. i just love how the sunset look behind me.
its nice. :)

AHA! look at fatin.
after she ate. smiling wider than normal.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

AND THIS IS TRASH.
WHAT WE ANCHINGS DID.
HAHAHA!

so we sat around...drinking coconut by the beach.
and taking photos and enjoy the silent moment.....
WHAT?! silent moment luh sangat!
you guys wanna know what happened? we sat at this side way where theres tents and everything. and we were literally beside this couple who were kissing and hugging and kissing away by the side of the sea.
which i felt like PUKING. for god's sake. and,
i did say GET A ROOM, PLEASE. to them.
haha. FML.

out of boredom. i asked nazri to hold out a lighter and create a HEART SHAPE.
well, my idea works abit. atleast. haha. the heart shape can still be seen. but, the "I" which fatin was doing there, is rather...abnormal..but haha, its still look fine. ahha.

after we took like SO FUCKING MANY PHOTOS, we sat under this shelter with seats and everything. nazri and fatin was so engross with my itouch, that i was so tired that i was dozzing away.
sleeping and sleeping, my goodness. it felt so nice. i mean, its cooling with slight breeze and everything. and our tummy were full. omg, the feeling was so awesome that, nazri had no other better things to do but took this picture. its pure embarassing, but its real CANDID.
i loike. :))

then we cycled our way home..happily.
hahaha! its real hilarious as were we cycling, nazri was taking photo.
haha. its what you can call FUN.
pure FUN.

MEET my lovely smoking buddies.
weiny and ryan haikal.

me and handsome boy. weiny was taking the photos for us. its so weird that we can clique well together in this 2nd semester. thanks to luthafiz too anyway. but i feel like i'm much closer with them rather than with lut now, cause he has a total different class schedule than us. so me, ryan and weiny meet each other during breaks on every monday, tuesday. but, i often went home with weiny after school.
as usual. we tweet and tweet our way through. haha. theres this point of a time, when my handphone batt was real low, AND TWITTER SAVED MY LIFE. :) how cool.
haha. its like TWITTER IS THE NEW SMS. :)
awesome. so, since ive been close with them this 3rd or 4th week, ive come to realise that ryan haikal have this habit. of being absolutely CLEAN.
but still, he's my friend and i wont make fun of that and i respect him in anyway.

i love weiny's CANON DSLR.

so thats all for me.
weiny's been a darling. haikal's been a sweet heart. elle's been a lovable honey.
and it makes my life in school from mundane to happiness. :)

WHO'S MY NEXT BABY?!

2009-10-26T23:50:00.003+08:00

(bought it like on 25th October 2009)

WELCOMING, MY NEWEST BABY!!
:)
HEHE.
I LOVE MY iPOD TOUCH! :D
I SHALL CALL IT, BUMBLEE BEE!
(ive called alot of things with bumblee bee: my laptop, my 5800 express music phone, the coffee machine at my workplace.) lol.
this is like the 2nd expensive gadget i bought since the day i bought my psp.
the feeling was.....goooooooodddddddddddddddd.
I LOVE MY BUMBLEE BEE iPODTOUCH! WHOOWHOO!!
lovee. :)

hahaha! our minah and mats faces of the day. haha! i had real awesome fun, and serious laughter. whoowhoo! hahaha! i laugh so much that i even sweat it out. me fatin and nazri dance our way to the bustop.
left right LEFT LEFT, left right RIGHT RIGHT!
HHAHAHA! but fatin got it wrong, so we decided to rape her and make her naked in the streets. but, we're so kind tonight that we didnt do any harm to her. hahaha!
OMG! SOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING AWESOME.
MAKE MY MONDAY THE AWESOME DAY OF THE WEEK!
what a nice thing to start it off huh!
haha. so this morning i came late for school, and i got ppt up during the first class.
haha, incredible qariana, got late during the first ppt. hahaha.
but, good thing is i went school with haiqal rohani ( i got so many friends with haiqal, my goddd) so haikal never changed and my socialising with him is still the same.
we met. smile. and stay silence. haha. i dont know why, but i dont really (ever) interact with my friends boyfriends. HONESTLY.
haidah's
syahidah's
sabrina's
izdihar's
who else? fatin? nay, we all are buddies. members members mahh. haha. so i dont feel awkward with nazri. i even farted infront of him, so its NOTHING. hahaha!
he said, this Saturday infront the Orchard Cineleisure, there will be their gig and they will be performing. one shitty thing is that, im working. thats why.
:(
after that, i went to my class. and i was the first to present. WHAT THE FUCK?!
but, seriously, i need to salute hakim (my group mate) for his awesome presentation skills. he was cool. and freaking smart looking. he look so sharp. but seriously, die pon merepek. every sentence in whatever he said, there will be FUCK YOU LUH YOU, CIBAI SIA.
ok.

after that i went break with haikal (iryani) and weiny and elle. haha. so i pass the slippers to weiny and shes happy with it, so its cool. before we ate, we smoke. after we ate, we smoke. and i was like laughing effing nonstop like serious shit. with weiny jokes that are really fucking funny. haaha. omg, i shall not mention. but yeahhh. hahahahaha.
i had a great monday, seriously. i keep on laughing like non stop with three of them.

after that, i went back to class to do my computer programming shitsssss.
then one hour break again.
i was like a fucking loner that i went out of the class earlier than any of them. so, i was..like what the hell. took out my itouch and decided to go at the back gate of the school to smoke alone. and then i bump to haikal (iryani), he's school ended faster than mine. then he decided to sit with me and smoke together to fill my one hour break. and again, i was laughing non stop, haikal and his like what the hell jokes and stories was a killer. i almost cried while laughing. awesome shits. lol.

then went back to class, haikal (iryani) went home. and then my school is done. then fatin text me whether i wanted to study together tonight. so, of coz its a yes. then she came with food. and i was really surprise and honestly didnt know that nazri was going to turn up. ahah. he creep behind me and gave me shock! damn you kelepekkk!
hahaha!
then we were like joking and shits, they playing with my itouch, then after we studied, we play cards.
21
flush
bluff.
awesome shits sia, we played as if we were gambling. it was awesome shit. hoping to see them tmr as well.
WHERE'S MY MONEY YOU FAT COW! BANQUET MANAGER! SUCK COCK LUH CB! NABEYYYY!
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

ok. seriously, i got few issues while getting that itouch. ziyad my jiwe buddy was apparently against it. like seriously, whenever i meet him, he will be talking sense up to my head.
"kau mcm tak pernah hidop susah gitu. miskin. tak semesti nye kene beli pe, pakai otak lah, beli murah2 pun ok. takya buang buang duit, duit tu leh simpan untuk future siak. ke untuk aku enrol motor ke..hahaha..."
he talk sense seriously but at the same times, he still got jokes. thats what i like about JI.
and it hits me. but you know me, when i want things, i want it now and fast. so i made a choice to buy the damn thing and make me starve.
and NOT ONLY THAT. i got a lecture from ziyad not to eat so much and cut down on food, especially chicken. what the hell. haha.
he asked me to go hungry for a week. like what he did.
maybe i should you know, i mean..NP food sucks. so i just go out and smoke and drink milk tea can make me full so why spent so much. AHA! yeahh. i shall do that.

and guess what peeps? i smoke 11 sticks today. OMFG.
i know righttt? can someone like smack me hard or something.
i really feel so stress that i did something stupid as that.
omg.

but, overall. my MONDAY WAS AWESOME SHIT!
AT school, i non stop twittering with weiny and haikal (iryani)
haha, i adore those to people sia. tweet tweet tweet nons stop. and elle too, she make my day too, miss her during classes and she singing songs to me.
:(
haha.

oh well. i need to sleep and wake up real early to go breakfast with my dad. so see you bitches soon. muahhhhhzxzxzxxzxzxxzx.

and hey, btw. GET WELL SOON OKAY?..
singapore's weather is a bitch, so you must drink more water and dont smoke too much now since youre sick. get well really really soon. :)
(cakap orang, diri sendiri smoke 11 ciggs per day- 1 box for 2 days.)
hehehe.

BYE BITCHES. SHALL UPDATE MORE.
:)

SATURDAY OUTING.

2009-10-24T23:58:00.002+08:00

at 7pm, i met fatin and nazri at ang mo kio interchange. haha. my motive was to buy a itouch. so WE ate and talk and laugh till we got ourselves absolutely nothing to share about. haha.
but then, the shop was close when im about to buy one.
but its okay, tmr im working and after that, im buying one.
and i need to buy weiny her slippers too. haha.
okay, im damn tired right now.
and while we were lepaking, we met this klapson work mate, i cant remember whats his name tho, but it was real weird when he invites us to come to his chalet. which is like, WHAT? DUDE? ARE YOU OKAY? haha.
its funny but, yeah, whatever. he's only 17, like what the hell right?
pffft.............!
while lepaking, i twittering. haha. peeps, i urge you guys to like join TWITTER now.
i mean, in class im twittering with weiny, ryan haikal, brenda, haidah, syah. its like so nice to wonder around thinking what you peeps are doing, you guys should just sign it fun.
its like the IT thing now. so BOOMZ. haha. wtf?
tmr im working at 7am AND WHOOWHOOO!!!! ZIYAD MY LOVELY BUDDY IS WORKING TOO! damnit, its gonna be fun, i hope. plueeassseeee! so im meeting him tmr morning to go to work together.
omg, im so crazy with itouch now. brother seems to have his lying around. haha. im gonna get one tmr. fuuh.
i'll update more. but im damn tired now. see ya peeps.

3rd day more boredom.

2009-10-21T19:27:00.002+08:00

today was like a maths day.
every wednesday is a hell of maths day. EG2 for 3 freaking hours, but after that, i get to go home.
12pm babyyy!
whoowhoo! thats what im so freaking about tho.
so after school i met with elle and haikal to go break with them.
yada yada yada.
called fatin.
called sheraton to work during weekends.
or hell.
after that, i reached chongpang. bought nasi ayam penyet.
got a fight with that bitch at home.
tummy was hungry.
fight with her somemore.
got really mad, after that i ate.
but no appetite. no matter, i stuffed the food down my throat.
how depressing.
i hate that bitch.
yada yada yada.
at home and slacking, didnt even do my project yet.
IM SO GONNA BE DEAD.

<3

2009-10-15T19:44:00.006+08:00

i love this picture.

THIS IS SO FREAKING UGLY, I KNOW.
OH WELL.
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

hehe. paparazzi. :) hehe.

im addicted to 500 days of summer indie stuff that i decided to buy one real nice indie shoes.
:)
its cheap and comfie.
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i went down just now about 8.50pm. and walk all the way up to 812 bus stop and...
...i just cant stop staring at your window...
i dont know why, its like a habit that i had when i was in sec4. a habit to look up, and the tiny window of your house. im not sure what im waiting to see or about to see, but i just...apparently- frequently did that. its just pure habit, and i cant stop it, no matter how many times i told myself, not to look at those windows or rather HOUSE. delibrately, like a normal gesture. my head will just..look..up..there.
so weird yet true. and not only that. im longing to ask this questions just that fatin thinks that this is rather impropriate. but, it wont be a fuss. honest.
im just thinking, weird things happen to people and i think it hit me real hard.
...........................................................................................................
...............
.

.....................................
i thought i just believe you. cause you asked me to trust you. now, it hits a curb, and everything STOPS. i just cant figure it out..even the hardest to the simplest engineering questions that includes all the green blue red yellow gold silver wiring that connected to every breadboard.
bubu. what. happened. ?
(now i feel really effing silly)
guess, ive been the cheated for the 2nd time huh?
you such a fool nana.
bitch.
just tho you know, it wont happened again. my the capacity of my trust that you almost drank, is GONE.
be it.

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HOW COULD I FORGET TO TELL THE WORLD WHAT HAPPENED TODAY?!
I ALMOST GOT CAUGHT FROM NEA. I SMOKE AT THE BACK OF AMK ALLEYWAY, WHICH WAS EMPTY AND THE BEST PLACE FOUND BY ME TO EMO ALONE!
AND I GOT FUCKING CAUGHT!
"hey, can i see your ciggarette pack and your ciggarette?"
my hands was like FUCKING SHAKING. fuck yeah!
"ouh okay then, thanks."
WHAT THE FUCK YOU FUCKING MAFFIA!
stupid sia nea.
burnt, in hell you morons.

k done, im sleeping ANDDDDD TMR HAVE TO GO TO SCH TO BUY BOOKSS ANDDDDDD
GOT TO GO WORK AFTER THAT ANNDDDDDD

i want to watch HAIRSPRAY with lickable sexy ZAC EFRON.
SORRY HAIDAH! BOOHOO!

take care bitches!

PAST.

2009-10-15T17:41:00.009+08:00

i'll recap what happened last few days (week), so try to keep up alright?. :) have fun!
let starts with..

NO WONDER its called KAMPUNG ARANG, KALLANG. nazri's house even looked like one kampong. how effing cool is that.
:)

i love my camera bag.
(mesti lah, MAHAL DOHHH!)

this is nice huh?
good camera, so i decided not to buy a D500 Canon Camera as i got alot of scoldings from my brother, sab, my mom. (N)
BIG NONO.
see those bikes? me and fatin rent those to ride to tanjung rhu during the fasting month.
:)

@ Nazri House deciding whether to go to work or not.
we tried to brainwash him- asking him not to go to work and decide to do cycling instead. HAHA. wtf? but, too bad, naz still want to go to work, reason?
"kesian seh Rosli, tak kan nak paitau member sendiri?"
then we drag ourselves there.........
(daily wake up calls for BIG SLEEPHEAD LIKE HIM.)

Nazri's stray cat..he called him CHEK-MONG.
(wtf) i know right... lols.

our threesome morning/afternoon breakfast/lunch.
:)
AT THIS very moment, we were already late for work, despite THAT, we still got time to snap photos along the way.
:)

our BUSOK face.
after work.
about 7.45am @ Clark Quay. and let me share little shits to you, we work like 12pm up till 7am.
crazy? i know... i didnt slept for the whole night and yadd just woke up from his ugly sleep.
my gawd, the tired was unbelievable but, $12 per hour, how does that sound huh?

interesting am i right?

my beloved syah, we met cause i need her help to follow me to the ACER building @ Jurong East International Business Park.
and apparently, this was her first time eating Swesens. im glad to indulge the food FIRST with her. :) and our planns for GAGA OUTING. (Y)

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working at klapson was awesome.
really grreatttt, if i can shout and scream how awesome it was, I WILL.
i met alot new friends there, and they we awesomely funny and hilarious.

let me recall all their names (if i could) amalya, yas(16), samad(16), syafiq(16), fauzi(16), joe kilat(18), nizam, halim, adnan, danny, lingam, farah, farah tinggi, sudin, azhar, hafiz "am am", haikal...opps, the others are histories.
haha. so out of boredom, im trying to drag yadd buddy and hanis love to join klapson.
:)
anddddddddddddddddddddd. (omg, fatin is going to smack me real hard about this)
i found an eye candy there. :) ehehe.
fatin, figure this out. oh my....you already gonna figure this out already, this is way easy shit. HAHA. well, i called him "HOW-ABOUT-YOU-GUY" LMAO!
you wanna know why? BECAUSE, i know he had never serve a table before, so i can see that he's abit shaky. i got a table just beside him. i even help his table to serve breads. and i help him to serve his table, passing around the main course food, thats where when i get to talk to him! :D
then, when the event is finally OVER. he talked to me
"nie semue dah habis eh?".
and i said "yeap."
..................................... long irritating silence ....................................
so i asked him "are you staying till closing? till 2am or so?"
and he replied "yes, how about you?"
WHAT THE FUCK? haha. search for me if theres any malay guy would say that kind of language?
"how about you?" with his hand gesture and stuff. haha. its might not be BIG A THING for you people, but hey, that words..caught me by surprise. and i ended up smiling to myself.
but too bad, the next day he didnt turn up for work. :(
oh well. pleasant knowing you.
:)
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the next day i work for klapson that ended up 7am in the morning.
I HAD A GREAT LIFE FUN WITH 16 YEAR OLDS!
OMG. I THINK I LOVE EACH ONE OF THEM.
THE ONE I CURIK THEIR SUPPER.
THE ONE WHO DID DISHWASHING WITH ME.
THE ONE WHO KEEPS ON LAUGHING NON STOP.
THE ONE WHO SAYS LEVEL 29 HAS A NICE VIEW SUNRISE/SUNSETS.
THE ONE WHO DID BARTENDER.
OHH EMMM GEEE.
THEY ARE SUPER CUTE AND FUNNY!
for goodness sake, one of them was my dishwashing friend, we did a stewarding job for a day. ahaha. his name is syafiq and he's cool and funny, he got nokia 5800, and he got twitter. HOW EFFING COOL. ahaha. and the other one was samad but he wants everyone to call him Dol. haha. he makes joke like non stop and i cant fucking STOP LAUGHING! and the other one who said that level 29 of the building have a beautiful sunsets or sunrises i cant remember. he end up talking to me first, which is like WHY ARE YOU TALKING TO ME DUDE? at first lah, but after knowing him and stuff, he's pretty sweet and charming and soooo lady's man. cause, he's such a cool chap.
OH EMM GEE? NANA FALLING FOR A 16 YEAR OLD?
omg! no way! still, i cant remember hes name. haha. firdaus? farhan? fauzi?
HAHA. IDK!
well that is the only bestest thing ever happen to me. mixing with the 16 year olds are not that bad.
(Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)
:)
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the recent thing happen to me is that.
my
sister
now
work
at
the
same
place
with
me.
its at sheraton towers hotel.
OH EMM GEE.
I GOT NOTHING TO SAY BUT TO BE CAUTIOUS WITH MYSELF.
DEAR SHERATON PEEPS. I LOVE ALL OF YOU AND PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE. I BEG YOU. NOT TO SAY ANYTHING ABOUT SHITTY SMOKING TO MY SISTER. CAUSE NO ONE KNOWS I SMOKE LIKE A KID ON DRUGS MORE THAN ANYONE OF YOU.
so please. i beg. not to mention anything NEAR smoking.
but, me and shikin create something that help me sealed this secret of mine.
we create a diff name for smoking.
that day i work, we create smoking as "mee soto" "mee siam" "pizza"
nicey? haha.
shikin "thanks lah qariana, for the mee siam tadi"
me "haha, no prob uh shikin!"
dalam hati....macam 'AM 'AM.
hahahahahha. lol.
but you know what? sooner or later, i confirm you that im gonna get caught. FOR REAL SHIT!
but, i aint buying cigg using my parents money and if happen to die sooner..its up to me.
and i wont give the reason that just because im 18, I can do whatever i want. NO. i would rather explain to them that, this is me, and this is how i want to live with..smoking is nothing, and i waste on my very own money andddddddddd, it got nothing to do with my parents. in other words, im not smoking infront of them. mummy always got a thing that girls who smokes are BAD.
well, im not.
im not bad.
okay, fuck yeah. i am. i drink and i smoke. but i behave well at home and i go to school.
i guess i just have to figure out that myself.
i mean, everyone got their own bad side. ATLEAST. AT THE VERY LEAST.
true?
prove to me that none of you had never did this shit before?
bitch.
movin onn.....
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where were we?
haha. ok.....so, i got my laptop back and i watch 500 DAYS OF SUMMER.
IT WAS AWESOME PIECE OF SHIT.
I LOVE IT.
ITS AWESOME.
I PAID $6 FOR IT.
I LOVE THE STORY LINE.
and however, its true. love based on COINCIDENCE.
not by miracle.
or faith.
it always been true. my oh my. this is a long post. i need to stop here. i'll continue after i bath aite. muahx!

[500] days of summer.

2009-10-15T12:22:00.003+08:00

OKAY. IM OUTSIDE NOW. BASICALLY, WHEN I SAID I GOT MY BABY BACK, IT MEANS MY BABY BUMBLEBEE LAPPIE.
my baby has been operated for some kind of failure thats he's having. which is
STUCK KEYBOARD/ UNABLE TO USE.
so baby's back. and im beat. BUTTTT. im trying to pampered myself as much as i can before school reopens in like.. 3 DAYS??
haha. so i pampered myself, i did some window shopping which is useless when cotton on is not around. so i didn buy anything. and i treat myself, MY VERY OWN SELF movie.

500 DAYS OF SUMMER!

whoowhooo. the reason why im planning to watch this is because.....
its a story about a boy, who i think apparently cant get over his ex. and i'll tell you more when im back home and my baby is fully charged.
IM EXCITED!
okay, GTG.

SEE YOU BITCHES.
MUAHX!

RAYE 'ING ZERO NINE

2009-10-08T23:14:00.004+08:00

RAYE LUH SEHY!!IM LOST. :)

just as we came to izzie house, DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE is on, playing the NEW MOON'S soundtrack. how effing cool is that?

MY JIWE YADD NEVER CHANGE. :)

I LOVE CRAZY LAUGHABLE HANIS :)

SHERRIE AND IZZIE NEVER CHANGE :)

IM JUST GLAD that this year, at the very least, i get to meet my NSS lup lup geng again. awww. this is freaking awesome. seriously. eventho theres afew minutes of silence here and there, the feeling still awesome.
meet yad, hanis, sherrie, izzie, mahirah, dada, dewi, kill, a'an, man.
so cool. took pictures and jokes stuff.
i got punching from yadd.
yadd and hanis non stop harassing me with
"MY LOVER BOY" fever. which is effing weird, till she self changed my handphone wallpaper to my THE favourite foto of US.
then yadd asked me to listen the whole new album MAYDAY PARADE. especially ANYWHERE BUT HERE. that is as awesome as shit. :) CANT STOP LISTENING TO IT!
good good.

so the upcoming house to visit is sabrina's house this sunday, about five or six in the evening.
so anyone wanna join, you may come, cause, i bet theres tons of food there.
haahaha, i remember, when i was a kid, i said sab's house is like HAWKER CENTER.
full of food. :) good good.

so, im off to bed, got to work at 10am tomorrow.
see you bitches laterrrrrr. :)

BLOOD

2009-10-08T01:30:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY TO MD NAZRI!
THE KELEPEK.
THE ANCHING.
THE "BRO" (bro luh sangatttttt) lol.
THE whatever you wanna call him MAN.
hhheheheheheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
dah tua sak member. haha. anyway. just wanna wish ya, HAPPY BUFF DAY!!
AND SEMOGA KAMU DIPANJANGKAN UMUR!
confirm kalau aku belanje kau mcdonalds, kau bogel k?
(suke sak fatin.)
:) peace bro!

FATIN: "NAZRI MCM ADE DUA MATAIR SEH!!"
matair luh sangat. please eh.
aku single k.
takmo eh. stop it eh. jgn eh. no more eh. eh.? eh.? HAHAHA!

today, i felt that my legs almost dettached from my body. which is so weird, i felt deep in me, when i grow up, i wouldnt want to work. seriously, i dont want to work at allllll! in that case, i must find a really rich and famous husband for that.
seriously. i dont want to work for the rest of my entire life.
:(
and i, well cut myself today. which hurts like ive never felt before. the tissues was covered in blood and everything that i touched, have a red bleeding fingerprints all over.
i was doing barman today at the lobby, so i was pouring the juices in a glass and added SODA WATER and red syrup. when i open a new can of soda water, the thing gave a loud POP sound that sounded like a gun shot. FOR REAL, REAL SHIT MAN. and everyone was looking around thinking it was the champange bottle. but it was not. it came from me. so i totally blow off and told danny about it. which is funny. cause, he was panic and the guests thought there was a terrorist attack. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!!
after a while, i realise..i had a deep cut on my thumb. it was bleeding non stop and i bet it still bleeds till now. OMG? i just hurt myself.
curse of being a barman.
and curse that stupid SODA WATER!!
pffft!

so, i might be going RAYE tmr with my beloved lup lup geng of NSS.
sab's not gonna be there, shes working.
fatin too, cause shes has a bf to celebrate the bday with.
khai got school.
ohhh well. im all alone again. but, MY ZIYAD THE JIWE IS THERE AND AQIL THE BUDDY TOO.
so thats, gonna be fun. :)
but, hopefully i can wake up....
which i doubt so, im effing tired..
:( :(

PS: I LOVE YOU MY BITCHES.
and sweetchumps, you will always be in my prayers.

YOGA

2009-10-07T01:22:00.007+08:00

I JUST CANT BELIEVE IT THAT I SIGNED UP FOR YOGA.
nice one nana.
what the fuck are you thinking.
however, the class was average tho. i kind of like it, but not too much. the stretching part was, unbearablly..speechless.
but, it takes time for me to calm things around me as i feel so sucky today.
i guess im getting my red light soon. cause i ate alot today.
double cheese burger.
double BK turkey bacon UPSIZE meal.
chicken rice
chocolate bun with green tea.

for the fuck's sake nana. STOP FUCKING EATING.
its okay. yoga helps me.

sooooooooooooo. thats that.
i reached home about 12am. met sab for at chong pang, lepak with her and ahmad dearest with his friend.
awesome way to end my day.
:)

and on a kind note, if i got anything on my mind,
i promise to myself, im not gonna go telling everyone around me. let me keep what is troubling me. and i swear, i wont trouble the people around me.
BECAUSE, its not worth it. at the end of the day, the excitement disappear andddd i get scolded by the end of it.
starting from today.
no more story telling from me.

YOU'LL SEE HAPPY STUFF ABOUT ME. SURE. SURE.

and btw, i feel like reading NEW MOON again for the 3rd time.

whoosh

2009-10-05T23:20:00.004+08:00

i know its not gonna clear up anything.
i just got scolded by sab. wah shit. i feel like an idiot right now.
like seriously.
oh emm gee.

everyone is talking bad about you. and i cant help it with these people pushing me and telling me what to do. its their own state of mind.
i just hope i could prove them wrong.

and whatsup with people playing with each others hearts?
begging them, ensuring them, tell them all the wonderful things, bring back the memories that neither of them could let go,
BUT IN THE END, nothing's happening. nothing happened at all. its all, WORDS.
for fuck's sake.
seriously. if you want to do something, make sure you want it, really-really-want it.
if not. just. dont. enter. my. life. and. disturb. my. happiness.

and now, i feel, seriously..i feel like a dickhead.
and big time loseur.
happy arent you?
________________________________________________________
BACK TO TODAY STORY!

I SHOP ALOT TODAY.
haha. i shop alot almost everyday. :)
i go to the stationary shop and shop somemore, bought all my stuff, pens, pencil and shit which cost me about $70.50
then i went to buy more clothes which cost me $74
then i went home.
with sab of coz, i waited for her after work and we went home together. haha.
then we went chong pang.
then we went home.
then we went msn.
then i got scolded from her.
right.

tomorrow, i got a YOGA lesson with fatin and tuty.
@far east. hahahah. i dont know what to wear for yoga class. which is so effing weird.
but cool at the same time. haha. cause, this might be good, for my 2nd semester, im taking YOGA CLASS for my S&W module.

:)

SERIOUSLY, I FEEL SO FUCKED UP RIGHT NOW.
I DONT KNOW IF I SHOULD CRY AND BE SAD NOW.
Sabrina: "BUAT PE NAK SEDIH SEKARANG?!"
thanks sab.

:(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HAIDAH LOVE.

2009-10-05T22:45:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HAIDAH LOVE! MUAHZXZXZXZXZXZX!
dearest haidah,
im gonna go public on this because, this is the only way to show how much i love you with all my heart. if im a lesbian, you will already be in my pocket on my right side bra. :)
i hope this 19th birthday of yours will be the meaningful moment of the year and i hope that you will pass youre A levels with all the rainbow colours in the skies or many many colours that ever existed. *singing rainbow connection*
i hope, the way i wish you this morning at 00.30 was a meaningful one. and please, im sure of it, its not my voice, its just a cute little voice singing HAPPY BIRTHDAY. its not me, and sure....you'll soon get to hear my MICKEY MOUSE voice. :)

ive known you since i was sec 1 when i step into the LIVELY BAND OF NSS. eventho youre a year older than me, we've always think the SAME. thats why we are equal.
we're twins in other terms.
we used to be SECTION LEADERS.
we used to be BAND MAJORS.
we used to go to NCO CAMP.
we used to hail HISTORY as our favourite subjects in school.
we used to write letters to each other. HAHAHAHA! which you still kept it. awwww!
I USED TO DRAW A CARTOON VERSION OF YOU AND ME when we were young.
:)
awww, i miss those times when we're back in school and we were running away from DINAAR KAREN cause, he likes both of us. hahaha.
funny sia. and we studied together, that was the bestest thing ever, and not to forget about syahidah, we shared the most laughter with her too.
awww, i miss both of you. :(
i miss sya's merepek and random-ness
and i miss you and your jokes like to the hell core.
I LOVE YOU SYA AND HAIDAH LUP LUP
GAGA GENG TOTALLY RULES.
hahaha. gagagagaggagagagagagagagaggagaga. hahaha.

so, haidah. still i'll make the matter sound important here alright?
NO IPHONES!
OK. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY, ENJOY YOUR DAY.
:)
*big gaga hugs and kiss!*

omg, i still can remember those days which i cried to you and stuff because all the shits around me crumbling down.
and you crying to me like nobody business too.
we just yet to see syahidah crying, which we'll soon get to.
hehehe *evil grin*

have a great day love. :)
hope your dreams come true.

@ WINDOWS LIVE WRITER :)

2009-10-04T23:40:00.002+08:00

me and my cuzzie. hearts to fizal the cuzzie! yay!

me and sab. the USUAL. :)

who gives a damn.

2009-10-01T20:01:00.004+08:00

when qariana meets a camera, this is what she'll brings you.
:)

okay. now. this is serious. this frame of picture has been hanging on my brother's wall for quite sometimes now. and i can even figure a shit out of it. WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS PICTURE TRYING TO SHOW? i aint gonna ask my brother about it tho, cause he will call me minah-bimbo. so, no point asking.

____________________________________________________________________

seriously, i didn really know what happened this morning that, i drank like 4 cans of it and i got myself sore throat. OH EMM GEE. i know rright?
haha. it was nice and i think its my favourite thing to do now.
DRINK.
:)
and these are few snap shots that i took, feeling elated. hahaha. afterthat, i got myself scolded from my mommy, telling me that this can bring ADDICTIVE BEHAVIOR and its not good bla bla. my ohh my.
but it taste good. look!
im smiling while drinking!
hahaa. awesome :)

its redbull peeps. don't worry. its fucking RedBull. :)
____________________________________________________________________

so this is my beloved haidah's birthday wish list. this is weird, i never had one when its my 18th birthday. haha. I dont really get what i want. but, i did try to get it.
haha.
so haidah. i'll say this once more. NO IPHONE FOR YOU.
THATS THAT.
OKAY. whatever. even if you beg me baby.

and btw, i wont tell you what im gonna get for you, but i already planning on something
BUT NO IPHONES!
hahahahaha.
i love you haidah.
i pass my 1st semester. im going for the 2nd semester in next 2 weeks.
syah pass her exams too.
and i bet, with the help and love from Allah swt. you gonna pass. okay?

GAGA GIRLS RULE!!!

kau nb peh jantan. seriously, kau nb.

2009-09-25T00:56:00.002+08:00

theres a wise Jedi once said something like this,
" fights brought you to anger
anger brought you to hate,
hate brought you to the darker side"

and here i am, feeling the hate all around me and im so in the darker side.
:) *evil grin*
seriously, now the hate is building up and its easier for me to forget things.
this means, more cigarettes too.
OMG, I CANT WAIT FOR SCHOOL.
fcuk you. hahaha. anyway.
im feeling really angry right now. yes uh, finally, ive been waiting for this feeling such a long time for the past few days. angryyyyyyyyyy me.
so i can easily hate.
then i'll forget and i chuck things away or even burn them. YES UH!
I SHALL BURN THEM TO HELL.
i'll burn every bits of it.
every
tiny
bits
of
it
.
yes
i
will
.
you arrogant biatch.
or i can even give you a tight bitch slap since your mouth and tounge are like a proper bitch girl, i swear.
it really is.
i hope your happy. CAUSE I AM.
i gain something and i did what IM BRAVE ABOUT AND WHAT IM FIGHTING FOR.
and im happy cause i hated you. and im on the verge of hating you already.
YES UHHHH!!!!!

and my body mass and features baybeh, is my speciality.
and i dont give a fuck about every
each
words
that
came
from
your
mouth
.
get it?
you fuck.
peh NB CB. denial asshole blood sucker heroin.
who is kental bacen before we even know you fuck. lol.

for the fuck's sake. i hail to you for the happiness that we had for the short duration of symphathy and crap that i get. i cant believe it that i drown myself in the corals and seabeds that was being overcome by Global Warming.

just to check if your a mat or minah: (questions according from my brother)
(merepek tok lu uh babi. nabey peh jantan, sial)

what is the name of the sword of King Arthur's?
what is the name of the Keris that Hang Tuah had?
why is there deep sea creature dwells in the ocean now?

this is easy as shit. if you cant answer, your a dickhead.
even if youre my friend or not.

i love random ness.
muahx.

run along with your very equal comrades.
if you get what i mean, you freak with tuut tuut tuuuuuut.
HAHA.

we like to? MOVE IT! :D

2009-09-24T20:00:00.004+08:00

support tumblr! go go! these are cute!

okay. im tired. TIRED. but, nope im not gonna complain. :)
yesterday after work, i hang out with the weird couples, fatin and nazri, as usual. its like, nazri have 2 girlfriends now. eww. okay whatever. so we went to town to hang around far east to buy stuff. i bought my self a $42.90 camera bag at Funcdeko.
and $10 worth of checkered scarf, and 2 necklace.
fatin bought herself socks. :)
after that we went to burger king at cineleisure for supper, then we saw the faggot ALIFF AZIZ there queueing for food. haha. he's tall, ugly but adorable in a weird way. but he's such a faggot. yucks.
then i saw my gay SL, weixing. hahha love him, so gay. i just love him.
"OMG, ITS QARIANA!" he said yesterday. hahaha. and nazri was laughing the way weixing said that. bad sia. hahaha.
after that we walked all the way to dhoby ghaut to play LEFT 4 DEAD. on the way, i saw my beloved cousin SHAFIZAL HELLOPANDA eating subway while crossing the road. haha, he got a shock while i was teasing him. cousin ate subway too! OMG! so, i shouldnt feel guilty you see. hahaha......i ate subway too.....................................................................lol!
after that we smoked for awhile and the game begins,
OMG!
IT WAS
EFFING NICE
LUH SEH!
HAHAHA. but the more the merrier. next i should play with ariffin and shikin and nazri as well. the game was effing cool and i cant help myself from shouting
"ARGGHH!!" "NAZ AKU KENE TARIK, SAVE AKU!" "NAZ DIORG DTG! CEPAT SINI!" "FATIN PAKAI KAU NYE AID! CEPAT!" "AKU DAH MATI DOK! TOLONG!!!"
kecoh luh seh. BUT I ENJOYED! :D
haha, but most of the time i was shouting his name instead of NAZRI'S name. tersasul luh kate kan. HAHA. but it was effing fun! and i keep on saying the wrong word, i just got mixed up you see, like instead of RELOAD, i keep on repeating REFILLED. hahaha. dumbo.
:)

okay so tmr is F1 outside catering event. :(
whatever.

andddd btw, i went shopping again just now, ALONE! cause, no one is going to shop with me anymore, i think. no, confirm plus chop, im going to shop alone and no one is gonna accompany me anymore. yeah. :( sad thing, but hey, im use to that.
i bought stuff at cotton on shop that cost me $72.90
-a black tee
-a white tee
-a tee shirt
-a red pump shoe
-a black pump shoe
- 2 vintage shades

:)

then i went to chong pang and bought
- handphone cover
-jazz shoes
-jeans
-contact lens
-hair accesories

:)

fantastic way to relief stress,
shopping and waste money baybeh. :)

i need real help to stop smoking man.
i need people to push and scold me. the habit is becoming worse. HELPPPPP. :(
just scream at me or whatever it takes.
I NEED TO STOP!
:(

black and white didnt fit.

2009-09-21T00:33:00.002+08:00

ive think it through. ive really did. still, ive no regrets in doing my very own choice. i neglected people saying that, being with you will ruin it all. im about to tell you that, i want you..back.
i know im a little too late, am i? well, i know you didnt want to know my answer and ask me to forget about it. forget about you, most probably. still, im not sure why you didnt want to know my answer since ive already made up my mind. i'll tell you my reasons why i want you back.....

because, i thought...why being so blinded by things that we cant even reached when the one right infront of us is there waiting.
why am i running for someone who dont even want me when youre there, saying you misses me every single day since youre in camp.
and why cant i have you back when i can have you.
and i finally realise.
thats why i made up my mind, cause..even that is what he wants. me being with you back, despite he knows im falling head over heels for him. ive really think it thru for the pass few days, and finally, haidah agreed with me, so as syah. haidah totally agreed with me and that makes me more confident to be with you back. and im prepared and im not feeling remorse about it either.

but sadly...you didnt get to hear my explanation as well as my answer, cause you didnt want to know about it nor hear. im not sure why, but thats what you want. you told me to forget about the questions yesterday. i bet you cant read this because, tmr morning you gonna book in and i bet you will not gonna be back out here for the next 2 or 3 months. i just wanna post this, because i might never know your sister might be reading this or your friends might.

i really want to scream deep inside me, out to the ocean and up to the sky that i miss you as hell.
i really do.
i miss your stupid dry humour.
i miss you breaking pills for me when im sick.
i miss you making silly things funny.
i miss you saying out beautiful lyrics showing me how much you love me.
i miss messing up your hair.
i miss when you sleep on my lap.
i miss chatting with you in msn.
i guess youre the only one who really understands me.
i truly misses you as much as you misses me.
i guess, first love isnt the easiest to forget.

i know you wont be reading this, and thats the most saddest part ever.
i just want to tell
you this:

take care hafidz hanafi.

GAY. SCOLDING. EXPOSURE. FUN. BEAT.

2009-09-19T01:59:00.002+08:00

SERIOUSLY. i got a shock of my life this morning.
plus, i was embarass to the effing core.
plus, it was such a good sight.
equals, THANK GOD, ITS THE BEST FRIDAY, EVER.
well, not really tho.

mommy asked me to wake up this morning to wait her under the block to carry some groceries up. I TOLD YOU, i wont ever wake up early when im off. told cha! and i did actually waited for her. grab my specs, grab my hair band and im down the block.
i was ugly as shit when i wake up every morning.
i didnt even look in the mirror.
so i waited for mommy. she wasnt under the block. i didn call her since i left my fone at home, so i waited. then i saw her.......without her groceries plastics but instead.......a bunch of flowers........only. and then she was walking with this lanky looking man (serious shit!)
then i thought. nahhh. its cant be. i rubbed my eyes, thinking i was still sleeping or worse, SLEEP WALKING. and then again, i squeeze my eyes to have a clearer view.
OMFG. OMFG. IT WAS FARID WHO WAS WALKING WITH MY MOMMY CARRYING THOSE GROCERIES!!! OMFG!!!
seriously, it was the embarassing moment of life when farid get to see the UGLY SIDE OF QARIANA WHEN SHE WOKE UP. omg. i still wont forget that moment. till this late. OMG!!!
it was pure. embarassing.
but thanks mohd farid bin mohd amri for helping my mommy carrying those stuff! appreciates alot and my mommy was telling me, youre appearance was a miracle to her tiredness. (i knw its my fault for leaving her go market alone) thank you farid! and sorry for being so cold towards you a few days back (:

ok. back serious stuff, i cant log in to my results today. which was sick. surprisingly, many of my guy friends was concern about my results and keep on asking me how well did i beat. ryan haikal, nic, shao wei and of coz, the first person to msg me in the morning was luthafiz. oh well. i dont wish to elaborate.

just now, terawih was the best. we all buke sup tulang. which was awesome, kena scolding alot. sembayang just know also tak khusyuk, dont why but when i heard the Ustaz saying the prayers with his melting voice, omg. im telling cha, i was drifted away, hes voice was so sweet and melodious and so dreamy. omg. i love his voice even tho i cant get to see him. i help to pack the food and serve to the people, it was effing tiring. its like doing a catering for those ppl. i swear it is. haha.
went home about 11.30pm.

YAY! FARID AND ME ARE IN TALKING TERMS NOW! WHEEHEE!

then after reaching home, me and sab trying to find bunge api to play with, but then she said, its gonna be too noisey later so we canceled the idea. then out of boredom, we called out beloved AHMAD! haha, we hang out for awhile, its was about 1am in the morning we lepak under block, go chong pang and come back again, went home finally at about 2am. we smoked, tease each other, I MISS AHMAD SEH! haha. then i get to meet sab's boffie and his car. and we voice out our problems to each other. haha, syok luh seh.

after that, i received a msg from haidah. kan kene marah kan ngn haidah. padan muke qariana, haidah was eventually, not really scolding me, just that she was giving me advice and asking me to wake up and make up my mind. it was really a wake up call to me.
and i need more of that.
sab gave me a wake up call just now. to make up my mind too and beware of karma and asking what the heck am i thinking im doing with my infactuation life. omg. i dont even know whats the answer to that.

so i went home
feeling happy as hell today! :D thanks to sab's advice!
sad as hell due to result.
ok im beat, i need to sleep.

catch you on the fly hommie.

peace out home dawg!

take my words back to the rubbish bin

2009-09-15T00:06:00.004+08:00

i dont know why but latif loves to hug me.
wei xing too.
:D

aww. i love my TROMBONE section!
jeanette, weixing, me, latif, jonathan, matin.
:D

ELITES! thats what we called our gang :D

this is a tradition, elephant shot. left hand symbol.
elites is awesome.
_____________________________________________________________

really, im damn tired to go to band just now.
but,
right after i went in the band room,
got my instrument,
did my tuning...
and the feeling of being a band member is BACK.
omg. i cant believe that i actually can play really well since ive been smoking alot. i can actually play well and get back to my trombone days.
which was awesome.

and i really need to say sorry, a big sorry to weixing for writing really bad stuff about him and clubbing earlier today. i understand tho, i myself have been a SL before when im in secondary school. people hates me because im being so strict and demanding. and thats whats weixing is doing now, and i truly understand. sorry weixing pretty baby boy.
to add, just now. i got no freaking idea why, weixing look so hawt with his new hairstyle. haha. omg?
haha. which is weird lah, cause he just celebrated his 18 bdae recently and he clubs alot now and he got this dashing karma about him. he's tall and his neck is long, he very lean and very dramatic, funny and O.M.G,
but he's abit gay.
so if i were to like him......THERE MUST BE A SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME.
so we cancel that idea, shall we,
just wanna say, weixing ratchanakorn changprom lim is a hot thailand male pretty boy.
and i love him and the elites. MUAHH!

btw, just now, weixing is so nice make me feel homely, he let me smell his arm cause he just put a new body shop moisturizer, and jeanette is well- jeanette. ahaha, latiff is funnier than ever, fir is so nice make me feel homely in band too. OMG, i miss them so much. i dont know why, but every time when i meet weixing, i feel like i have this bitchy gay attitude being pass down to me. haha. i mean, like, this attitude behaviour, oh shall i say DIVA-IOUS behaviour that weixing is having now. haha. its nice tho. really. i love gays. haha.
you might be wondering what the fuck am i talking about right? haha. well you would never guess.

k bye. i need to sleep.

I WANT BOTH. not sure what, but BOTH.

2009-09-14T14:40:00.004+08:00

thanks to sarah.

thanks to Feeza.
..behold your beautiful nighmare..
the stupid latex is so sick that it stuck to my skin and wont came off.
thats the first and the last, someones gonna do that to my skin.
i. mean. it.

..my very beautiful eS theory skate shoes..
i'll wait patiently till i put my toes and socks thru those souls and thick comfort fabric inner part of the shoe.

..this gorgeous VOLCOM pullover sweatshirt is, terribly..gorgeous..
im simply addicted to these beautiful things.

______________________________________________________________
blooooooooody hell. i havent felt my leg hurts this bad ever before.
i swear. ive been working since fri,sat,sun just to earn money and i promise, i wont complain.
so i wont.
but seriously, after getting the hard earn money, ive become abit...thrifty.
sooner or later, you'll be seeing me as a scrooge. lol.
i need more money. seriously. i need to buy more clothes for school reopen. and i dont even know, why my clothes has been disappearing man. wtf?
i really need to go shopping.
ASAP.
sadly, im working on hari raya day week. even ive said i want to give it a rest. but seriously, i dont think im good enough to celebrate Syawal that fullfillingly. i mean, i didn fast my way fully in a month. and its just so sad. but no worries, Hari Raya can be celebrated for a month. :) soooo, ive yet to enjoy. mommy is fine with me working too. :)
and hafidz is allow to book out this saturday. he's been msging me when he's in camp........................
right. and im not sure what to do. fatin says to frget him and get on with life. same as haidah, cause she knows i like someone else. and even nazri said the same thing. if i ask aqil and yad, they'll give me the same ans, but for sab, shes a carefree person, she dont mind if im getting to anyone i want. so what now? i even told my mom and she said, just reply his msgs, its no harm being nice to people, just that..please dont get so into him.
honestly.
WOW. this is not what i want. hafidz is hafidz. he will always be my hafidz hanafi.
that wont change. what am i suppose to answer him? he's waiting.....
ok shit,
im confuse. so lets stop there.

i really feel sad right now, really i do..because,
i didnt get to buy hari raye clothes this year. which i did every other year.
my cousin didnt even buy for so many years, and he dont mind at all wearing it every year with the same clothes.
sabrina even said she wanted to buy for me one as a present but i rejected that idea. come on, its really embarassing for someone to buy it for me. right?
shit, i feel so freaking sad. thats why i worked during the hari raya week. :(
oh well. guess, i have to wear the baju that i had last year, last last year and the last last last year then. :]
ziyad the buddy once said this to me, "aluh Ji, takpe luh. kau macam tak pernah hidop susah jek?"
which make sense. totally.

and now, IM PISSED. my stupid SL, the gay one. is forcing everyone to turn up for band today. wtf? i did closing yesterday night which ends at 2am in the morning. and he msg me in about 3.44am saying that:
"HEY GUYS DO REMEMBER THERE IS BAND LATER. IM CLUBBING NOW BUT IM STILL GOING LATER SO NO REASON YOU SHOULDNT BE THERE :)"
what the fuck is this fucking faggot is talking about sia!? WHO IN THE FUCK ASKING YOU TO GO CLUBBING MAN?! AND IS CLUBBING FUCKING TIRING AT THE FIRST PLACE! YOU JUST GOTTA SIT THERE, BUY DRINKS, DANCE YOUR FUCKING DICK OUT AND SNAP PHOTOS!!!! YOU FUCKING FAGGOT SHIT ASS HOLE!!!
i hate when sl get to my nerve damnit. and now, i need to drag myself there. wtf, im going home early, and dont give a fuck cause tmr im working at 7am. YOU FUCKING BULLSHITTERS!
I HATE YOU PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck.

blue wee mee hee shitt eee.

2009-09-11T11:54:00.003+08:00

ok im basically bored now.
need to go work later at 3pm.
next week i'll only be working 2 days. which is so horrible, but, its okay tho. atleast i have a job.
so raye is next next week right? hope bubu can go out of his camp. poor thing if he celebrates inside. im gonna stay home in a traditional way. im not gonna think about work and im gonna visit those houses with my parents. come on, atleast respect the month of Syawal. its the only month where we can celebrate our day at the very best..only if you complete your fasting days.....................if not, raye its not a thing.
oh well. im patiently waiting for my hoodie and skate shoe.

it will be coming in a month times.
oh dear. please be patient nana. collect more money. come on.
patient is all you need baby.

hoodie and shoe.
:)
peace out home dawg (:

WHY AM I IN DENIAL??!

2009-09-10T22:35:00.007+08:00

THIS IS A TRUE STORY BASED ON MY DAILY BASIS.

well before i start on my story, i'll tell you what i did today.
i woke up real early to meet sarah again for this makeup shit thing, its part of a job i think. so just now we went for the course and i was the model. the latex sucks, i cant even tear it off my skin. when sarah got back her internet connection, i'll show the world how horrible and wicked was my face just now.
really. ugly.
ugly betty.
so random.
anyway, after that, me and sarah and the other two girls went to city hall to take more photos for sarah's assignment that due this friday. so instead of me being the model this time, sarah use the other two girls to help her out. i was really tired today. really damn fucking tired. my plan didn goes like what i wanted afterall. i really feel so sick in my butt and restless and really really tired.
good thing tmr im working, im gonna earn money to cover up the stuff that i bought online.
ive ordered VOLCOM CRUISE BY COZY HOODED PULLOVER SWEATSHIRT
and eS THEORY SKATE SHOE
and all this cost me 140 plus shipping. i sacrifice from buying a baju kurong just to wear these beautiful belonging of soon to be mine. so i needed to wait for 3 weeks for all these to arrive.
and i paid my bills full amount.
and i need to go bbdc real soon.
see farid and pass his vaseline and mcdonalds
meet cousin for awhile
buy food
buy mommy dessert
DAMN FUCKING TIRED SIA!
thats its for today's event.
**********************************

as i was saying based on my own true story. i realise that, at the age of 18 years old..its all about making "the" right decision. this is for real shit, i swear.
and in my case, i love contradicting stuff that i like or i want or whatever that make sense. which is very sad. i feel like im lying the crap out of myself. and seriously, these actions just simply slip thru my tounge. just like that, and those contradict words came out from nowhere. when i know, things are not exactly what i said. in other words, im saying the opposite things of what i felt deep in me.

basically, I'M IN DENIAL.
thats it.

and these actions, i cant help it. the things just happened and it hurts to think about it, cause im damn fucking lying to myself and the feeling is just suck.
ive think through about it and starting from now on, im gonna say the truth. im not gonna lie about my feelings just to make other people feel good or at a upper ground.

for instance, a friend ask " this hair looks good on me? dont you think?" and i shall reply, "no its not, its really ugly and really bad."

orr, a friend ask "so, do you like him?" and i shall reply, "yes, why? i aint lying."

or maybe, i shall asked my friend, "what are you playing at? do you like me or not?", maybe that friend will reply, "no, i dont like you as in, more as a friend." and then i shall reply, "oh, thats a waste. i really liked you tho."

IM GONNA BE TRUTHFUL FROM NOW ON.
basic idea of life - trust.

ask me anything. i'll give you the honest answer ever and it may shock the hell out of you.
go on.

________________________________________________________

byebye hafidz hanafi! take care, i cant wait to see you botak.
all the best in saving our mother land. lol. takmo cry cry ehh (: (cakap org eh) haha.
k, merepek.

so long and goodnight people.

PHOTOSHOOT DAY WITH SARAH :) (Y)

2009-09-09T12:04:00.015+08:00

OMG.
channing tatum,
is just pure gorgeous, dreamy and ahhhhhhhhhhhh.

i had a tiring day today, i woke up real early to meet my good friend sarah to help her with her school stuff. haha. reall tiring. so here some of the pictures she took for her school project due this friday. and i was her model for the day. and it was freaking difficult. im gonna meet her again tmr morning for this makeup thing. hopefully i can wake up man. haha. im too tired to elaborate so just look at it if you want to.

soo. i want to say this out loud.
to MUHAMMAD HAFIDZ BIN MOHAMMAD HANAFI, i wish you all the best when you go for NS friday morning. :) erm, i hope, you will finish your 2 years at ease and i hope soon your body will be like hot mr channing tatum. :) i just wanna say that, all the best. (Y)
(like as if the NS outside singapore eh, lol!!!)
dont worry hafidz, if i fell down the stairs or i trip myself, i'll call you at your NS temporary hp k!? (kacau eh)
haha. k merepek.

k best. i need to sleep.

shut up and read my best friends.

2009-09-06T16:25:00.014+08:00

okay. uploading this junks is such a dick. anddddd im exhausted.
next week friday, hafidz gonna go for NS.
next weekend im working, so weekend is definately out for me.
next week thursday, bet there band practice.
yeapyeapyeap. thats it for next week's plan. (:

so these little junkies pictures was taken yesterday, i got a hell of the Saturday as my favourite weekend in the list. after the F1 meeting, me and the junkies went to break fast at Tanjung Rhu. yeap, as promise, i told you guys we gonna sit there and buy food and shut up and eat.
and WE DID.
and i bought kfc there and eat. how awesome.
so mission accomplished yet again.
but, theres a little twist here. we cycle to tanjung rhu from nazri's house. we borrowed his bikes and cycle there. OMG. the feeling was super awesome like, real awesome.
i feel like THERES A 5 YEAR OLD KID IN ME AGAIN! :D
okay, i lie, i mean, i didnt even ride 2 wheel bike when i was 5.
tsk.
but the feeling was so good. really. cycling there, lying down the grass patch looking at the stars, and bats flying around almost hit us.
and yet again, mr farid did not came with us cause he was working. haha. but he called when we're in tajung rhu yesterday and i told him all the fun things we did.
and tanjung rhu is not dope and mellow farid.
read that? tanjung rhu is awesome and next time (hopefully) me, fatin and naz gonna drag you there. :D

enjoy staring at the fotos, im not gonna elaborate more, im wayyyyyyy tired.
oh ya! btw, im crazy for volcom reversible hoodie sweatshirts and emerica laced shoes. cousin fizal said he gonna buy for me thru online and now im browsing and shopping addictive NOW!
how awesome can this get huh!
LMAO!
back on online shopping babeh. muahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhxzxzxzzxzxzxz!

my oh my.

2009-09-03T19:53:00.004+08:00

awww, kick me twice in the face and hand me to my momma'!
this two great awesome bodies of males is HOT or what?!

oh johnny ohh johnny. youre that perfect indie man im craving. slurp.

good gracious my wonderful people. how long have i not been blogging in?
haha. its hardly a week right? cause, i cant find anything to blog in for. cause, me being bored and stuck at home 24/7. my aunt keep bugging me on the phone for days (for god's sake) to do my resume and go for the damn interview in Jurong East. but, for myself, i hardly wake up early these days. i woke about 4pm everyday. :)
peace for that. ohh, hope tmr morning is a fine day and i'll shall go for the god's for saken interview. Kudos to Qariana.
(if i ever wakes up early)
:)
anyway................................................................................................
ive not been blogging in much cause im more active on my Tumblr baby blog.
awww, tumblr been such a darling to me. i'm the top 400 blogs in Singapore.
how effing cool? haha. my tumblarity is rising. so, you guys should totally check this out.
www.pileoftrash.tumblr.com
but, no worries, im active here too. :)
(active luh sangat)
hahahaha.

so, might be seeing yadd the buddy jiwe and crazy girlfriend next week for buke. i hope. i don't know, ive been really slacking today. i got band prac and i didnt go. hehe. because my good friend matin didn go, so, i didn go too. but, no worries, i'll come for band practise next week. :)

and guess what, just a few seconds ago, my mom is nagging at me.
NAGGING.
read those words, N-A-G-G-I-N-G at me.
haha, but she nags at a funny way, cause, at the same time, she was laughing. haha
she tried to argue me off that I GOT A BOYFRIEND.
yeah, read that, I GOT A BOYFRIEND she said.
hahahahaha! which is hilarious, i know rright? hahahaha. she tried to argue me off with her cute motherly face with her hands gesture at the hips and then keep on pointing at me repeatedly.
then i tried to argue back in a funny way, SAPE NANA NYE BOYFRIEND?
haha, ELEH, MOMMY TAHU! TAK NAK BILANG!
hahahaha. SAPE SAPE?
haha, I KNOW YOU KNOW!
haha, TELL ME TELL ME?
hahaha. then my dad say OHH, ORANG AJAK GE CAUSEWAY POINT, TAKNAK IKOT. KAWAN AJAK GE GEYLANG TEMAN BELI BAJU, PUNYE LAH CEPAT!
hahahahah, i love my mommy and ayah. hahahhaha!
well, i already can guessed whos the lucky for god's sake boy that shes think is my bf.
hahaha. i can BET! even my 3-weeks-not-talking-to-me-since-brother thinks that i have a bf too.
giler nye org. ishhhh!
FINE. NOW MY WHOLE FAMILY IN THE HOUSE THINKS I HAVE A BF!
WTF?
hahahahahahahhahahahhahaha. funny sia. hahahahahhahahahahahahahahah!

haha. i know right..
well, see ya my wonderful people.

"catch your weather eye on the horizon" - Will Turner.

MOVIES + GEYLANG + TANJUNG RHU = AWESOME!

2009-08-30T13:17:00.012+08:00

you can see the suntec city building from the place we sat.

thats the indoor stadium. effing cool with lights.

excitement.

thats what we ate. haha. naz says "kite org buke main main seh" lol.

we sat, naz bace doa buke and makan. then we ate. :)
bandung for naz, fruit punch for me and fatin :)

before we even reach geylang, we got lost and dont even know how to get there.

naz, butt kissing a guess ad lady. lol.

naz felt jealous that,he sat there too.

cool chap sitting there. CHIKEEDONGS. haha. word for hawt boys. :)

nazri having a vision that im gonna die. *FINAL DESTINATION* hahaha!

inside the cinema, with cool 3D glasses! haha.

me and the weirdest couple on earth. having a time of our lives.
haha. i laugh like non freaking stop. we even have our own MAT REP AND MINAH REP names: nazri = BOY NAZ / NAZ DAN (DAN means DANGER) lol.
fatin = TIN TIANG. lol. i gave her that name.
me = GERL NANA. lol.
tanjung rhu was awesome and great spot to sit down and shut up and enjoy the view. its was spectacularly awesome view, we saw the INDOOR STADIUM on the left. with lights and all. and theres this brigde connected to the Indoor Stadium. its was so cool. it was the first time ever ive been there yesterday, we sat there about 11.30pm till 1am in the morning, after that we took a cab home. i reached home about 2am. PHEWW. haha. its was awesome, seriously. naturally, naz was bombarded by fatin and my questions. haha. cause, maybe i think, yesterday was the only time i get to see nazri, while other days, it might be hard cause he rarely works in sheraton anymore, so that was a waste, cause, if he was the barman for every event, me and fatin would be jumping in joy with excitement. cause we can get FRIES AND SANDWICHES and naz being the barman, IS STRESS FREE. thumbs up for naz. hope he come back for barman soon :) more excitingly, when we sat there, we were talking about alot of stuff. but, i cant reveal it.
CAKAP SINI HABIS SINI. soo zipped it nana. :)
and theres jumping fishes there, PLUP! and flying bats around. its so effing cool, and yesterday wasnt a hot and humid day so the wind was practically blowing easily and the breeze was just perfect after walking thru GEYLANG SERAI.

speaking of which. i wish, or hope i wouldnt have to go back to geylang ever again.
I HATE THE CROWD.
I HATE THE MATS AND MINAHS THERE.
ITS EFFING HOT/HUMID/IRRITATISNG.
IT BRINGS YOU HEAD RUSH AND DIZZINESS.
AND THIS YEAR, its nothing.
BUT FOOD, WAS GLORIOUS. THUMBS UP FOR THAT, I GIVE YA. (Y)
but, nayy, i think i might be going there again, for the sake of fun. why not right? i only like the food part, while the others..nahh nahh. haha.

so, talking about the movie. we watch FINAL DESTINATION 4 IN 3D! it was effing crazy! can you imagine sitting there with those 3D GLASSES ON AND THE BLOOD AND GRUESOME THING YOURE SEEING IS LIKE SO UP CLOSE AND RIGHT INFRONT OF YOUR EYES!? well. its was fun tho, i felt the movie was like a run up- the ending was fast. but it fits 2 hours straight up. after the movie, nazri cant even shuts himself about these VISIONS things that he "saw" that im going to die next and imaging how am i gonna die. haha. which was hilarious! haha. if i die, naz and fatin have to die too in the end. haha. then we talk about having to do our own movie or video. hilarious hilarious.

haha. at the end of the day. (or morning, cause i went home about 1.30am in the morning. lol.) we say, that we should do the same thing again. we should buke together again. and go to tanjung rhu again. BUT THIS TIME, WE GONNA DRAG FARID ALONG WITH US! haha. me and fatin don't really know if he would enjoy tanjung rhu cause, farid dont even like sitting boringly at the yishun mini reservoir with us. haha! but who cares right? we still gonna drag farid along, no matter if he likes it or not. (Y) lol. this time, we should buke at tanjung rhu itself. we buy food, drinks, chips, everything! ahah, and we shall sit there, shut up and eat. and make alot of fun to filled our day!

so mission accomplised: i get to buke with nazri and fatin. :)

btw, feel free to view my new blog. its not really functioning well YET.
tumblr, is where i can put my FREEDOM OF SPEECH and PICTURE TELLS A THOUSAND WORDS. so, enjoy.

http://www.pileoftrash.tumblr.com

(i'll relink, when its fully finish)

LOVE: QARIANA

2009-08-27T21:35:00.001+08:00

my favourite peeps. each photoes represent an event behind it. ask me what, and i'll answer it for you. :)

im so terribly confused.

2009-08-27T03:29:00.003+08:00

this is for "two" human beings who is reading this.

sincerely
-qariana.

this isnt happening to me. again. please.

2009-08-24T03:59:00.002+08:00

seriously. im like freaking out now. like for real.
i cant believe what just happened.
and i cant believe im waking up to blog this in.
i just CAN'T BELIEVE IT!
omg. omg. this isnt happening to me, again. please.

this what happened. at 2.45am this morning, ive received a phone call.
not one but TWO missed call. cause i dont even bother to answer, and the third time it called again, i got no other choice to shut the person up but to answer it.

at first. i was like.who the hell are you, but i didnt say it out cause it was rude, and i dont want to be rude, so i politely asked who is this, repeatedly. like 5 times i need to repeat that. the voice was so familiar yet, i cant figure out who it was. really. alot of people was running through my mind, and obviously i cant think straight and pick a person with this MALE voice. so i was like..."seriously who is this" with my morning-wake-up-call voice. cause the person at the other end was asking me "seriously tak tahu nie sape? ni I lah. tak kan tak ingat? tahu tak nie sape?"
for god's sake. the moment he mention these few words later that im gonna type, i had the shock of my life.
"you ingat tak dulu org panggil kite shrek and fiona"
i was silent for a couple of secs to gather my thoughts.
i took like exactly one minute to actually think that it WASNT A BAD NOR GOOD dream.
but it did wake me up abruptly.
i was, shocked. and amazed.
usually people would say this to me " kalau die suke kat kau, die akan carik kau lagi"
and, i hopefully this time, to me about him It. Is. Not. True.
i was... i dont know. really. like seriously. the first person i sms was farid. i got no reason why but i did. cause at the other hand, i dont want to tell fatin about this, but by the time she reads my blog, she will know. i dont know why but, i just did.

so, our mr shrek we talking about here was, Elfee.
i cant believe i said that name again and type his name here.
its just like, a dream that i wish it happen IN MY DREAMS but not in REALITY.
so reality strikes, what the hell. he ask me here and there and all about stuff.
he repeatedly asked me do i have a boyfriend since he gone.
asking if im seeing anyone now.
asking me if i missed him and stuff.
asking me ARE WE TOGETHER? cause he cant remember if we did.
he said repeatedly that he was sorry to be MIA-ing for so long.
hmm. let me see, MIA-ing for about 10 months? and im shocked that he did actually remember me still, which makes me think BABY, YOU AMAZED ME. (a song from select start)
i dont know why, but i just wished he would stop calling me now. but before he put down the phone he said, he would call me again tmr.
and i was like, what?..........................................
so in 2 more weeks he would be going for NS. and go CD. and, this is a very hilarious part, well not hilarious but, it is weird. like ME? QARIANA? ARE YOU SURE YOU ASKING THE RIGHT PERSON? LIKE O.M.G?
he asked me, to send him when he was about to go ns.
i was speechless.

OMG. THIS JUST NOT
HAPPENING TO ME.

YOURE TOO HOT TO DANCE WITH ME!

2009-08-23T19:44:00.009+08:00

i love Cobra Starship.

OMG. HAVE YOU GUYS HEARD OF Good Girls Gone Bad from Cobra Starship.
omg. i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee that song. seriously.
to the maximum core shit.
haha. and the lead singer reminds me of someone ahem ahem.
oh well.

okay, mom wake me this morning like a lightning thunder. i woke up with a shock. she just waking me up to go to the cemetry with my aunt. oh well, i have to go right? i mean, i'm the only reliable one at home whom she can depends on.
cooking.
cleaning neo waste.
sweep and mopping the floor.
but laundry, i wont even touch it.
so we went, me with my sicko sleepy face, put on my black tudong and glasses, and im out. we visited about 8 graves today. the graves that i'm really amaze to visit was my grandmother's and my great grandmother. firstly, my granny has this HUGE cactus on her grave. which was awesomely cool. and my great granny, died a day after i was born. my birthday fell on 20th June 91. And great granny died on 21th June 91. Mom says that, my great granny and me switch lives. :) im honoured.

after that, we went to the market @ Jurong East. OMG. i was so tired and sleepy. the whole time i was in the car sleeping like a pig. so i woke up and follow my aunt and mom to buy some whatever they need to buy. haha. then my aunt notice something. and she told me about it.

my aunt: kentang tadi tak perasan what happen in the market?
me: tak, why?
my aunt: tadi abang kat kedai daging tu asyik tgk kentang tak lepas seh. tak perasan ke?
me: oh eh? entah, malas nak layan pun.
my aunt: alah okay pe kentang. abang taukey kedai daging seh, mane nak dapat! kaya nanti kentang tau!

my mom and uncle was like laughing.
thanks uh eh. embarassing moment of my life. abang taukey kedai daging pun muke mcm abang anak 2. HAHAHA. nana, youre so bad. i knowww right? hahaha.

so we went to ramadan bazzar @ jurong west to buy ROTI BOYAN! haha, my fasting month is not complete without roti boyan. haha. i love roti boyan to the core! don't you? hahaha!
biase lah, cakap anak boyan kan? haha. AND I'M PROUD OF IT! YAY!
after that my aunt sent me and my mom home and i watch Kekasihku Seru online non stop and i didn touch my books for tmr test. i wrote that in fb and alot of friends commented. and then..i kena lecture by farid the dragon. sigh. haha. then immediately the book pop up right infront of my face. haha.
yay! mr dragon talk to me already. yay!

so here i am, trying to study for tmr test. OMG. I'M REALLY EXCITED WHAT I'M GOING TO DO AFTER MY TEST TMR! maybe i should go arcade after school! haha.
or i go west coast to destress!
or i go play pool!
or i go..omg i dont know. hahaha.
feel free to contact me and ask for an outing tmr. cause, you know i'll be bored,
and you know how to get to me! cheers peeps!

urgh, i feel like shit now. ive shouldnt put my name for F1 this year. such a pain in a butt. i just put it for fun, and nabey sheraton towers choose me for it. such a turn off. now, i cant go JB for raya and play fireworks with my cousins. shittos.

seriously, im so excited to break fast with my friends. its like, OMG. I'M-SO-EXCITED!
i want to break fast with haidah. sya. sab. aqil. yad. hanis. fatin. naz. farid. mustafa. syaz. my np friends. my other sheraton friends. dan kawan kawan yang lain. fuuuuuu best nye!!! wweee!
haha. eh, btw if fatin read this. i want to say a big thank you to naz for LAUGHING at me because i was left at BB alone that time. "hahahaha! qariana kene tinggal kan kat bukit batok? haha. padan muke die! hahaha!"
thanks seh naz, truly. that words made my day. really.
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!! kelakar jugak seh. haha.
ok shuddup. i need to revise now. really. FOCUS NANA! FOCUS!
BY TMR STRIKE 11AM. YOURE A FREE WILLY!
WILLY THE WHALE!
JUST FOCUS GIRL! COME ON!

cheers people.
"there's chemistry, but you don't have the reactions."
GOD SPEED QARIANA!

SUCK THIS.

2009-08-21T18:44:00.001+08:00

seriously, my handphone is really awesome piece of junk.
eventhough 3.2 mega pixel shit, it still come out good.
hahaha.
awesome piece of junk. whoowhoo!

i dont know, but i got a thing for teddy bears these few days, so i bought one to school today to give me extra luck, it didnt really work tho, but people in the train kept on looking at my bag when i flip it open, haha. cool right, now im gonna start a new trend.
i promise you, you, whoever out there, you buy me a bear, two bears, tons of bears, i love you deeply.
(with rules and regulations please.)
lols.

so, lets get it started.
today, i woke up really about 6am to revise on my GOD FOR SAKEN EG1 paper that im gonna sit that afternoon.
after awhile, my phone rang. guess who called?
that "taking advantage of my friendship" boy.
he asked me to come early to teach him, but really, i am in a good mood to come early anyway, but i ended up coming late. so too bad for him.
so, i bath like 45mins, makeup and pick my clothes which took like 1 hour 15 mins, and im ready to go. kiss my mom and dad goodbye, and im off.

so, 965 was such a bore that i took photos there. i like the scenery there around blk 118, i mean its so peaceful and sunny and calm. with only cars but overall, its a good view. and good for phototaking too. its random, i know, but thoes are my favourites up there.

so i took my own sweet time to go to school, elle reach there earlier i think. im always late, forever will be late. haha. im excited to meet her anyways, i got no reasons why. i just love girls talk with her. haha. lesbian porn is hawt-thats what she said. haha.
so when i reached school, me and elle sat down and have a talk about stuff. so i told her bunch of stories and she told me hers. haha. its fun, really, i have a good laugh with her tho. so about the time is right, we went in to the examination hall. its was filled with engineering students of course. i didnt notice him, until he was staring at me and demand me to wave at him, so i did wave, to show a signal of HELLO, NICE TO SEE YOU AGAIN to the taking advantange of my friendship boy. so i sat. waited. waited. waited.
and the paper was infront of me.
there, staring at me.
demand me to flip it thru.
so i did.
i did flip it thru.
(omg qariana, straight to the point damnit!)
i was feeling like, vomitting, sick, nervous, nausea, head rush, disgusted, frustrated and everything else that come to my mind about that paper.
I WAS BEING CHEATED!
I DID ALL MY PAST YEAR EXAMS PAPERS AND NONE OF THEM IS LIKE THIS YEAR AUGUST 2009 PAPER!
it is so different and i dont think i can score, MY EG1.
which was sick! damnit! stupid idiot bloodsucking, paper!
and seriously, finally, i fucked that paper.
i really did fucked that paper.
i was so pissed that i fucked that paper.
i repeat, i fucked that paper.
can you imagine me fucking 9 sheets of paper?
no? neither do i, but i fucked it.
elle did it too, but she manage to cope. for me, i was like, WAKENABEB!!
blooody old man lecturer of eg1 didn give me any hints.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
so i was really pissed, manage to do what i can do, and ended up drawing...
FLYING SAUCERS!
UFO!
ALIENS!
STARS!
MOON!
SATURN!
on my paper, that was suppose to be handed up to the lecturers. fuck care. i dont give a damn. i know that paper was screwed and i'll be more screwed for tomorrow's paper.

so i left the exam hall, early. met up with elle. and eat some cookies to ease the pain.
and guess who msg me? FOR GOD'S SAKE!
haha. that dude, ya ya, you know him, i know him. yeap its him.
T-A-O-M-F-G.
figure that out bitch.
he ask me if i'll study later, where im going, where am i now. what am i doing.
and i know, indirectly, he was demanding me to stay with him at school to study together.
OMG! YOU JUST GOT TO BE KIDDING ME MAN!

ish. aku tak suke uh waii. asyik nak melekat kat aku jek, aku tak suke uh, remas tau! dulu aku okay uh, tapi dah mcm hari hari, aku meluat uhhhh. aku kawan kau pe, bukan nye ade extra extra. remas uh boii.
kan, dah bebual minah. kan. kan.
haha.

but, still, i insist of telling that im going home to study. end of story. member pon binget, die pun alek. hahaha.
nana, nana....tsk.tsk.tsk. kene jugak kau satu hari. KARMA!

so here i am, blogging and editing pictures. i got a thumbs up from weiny and haikal for drawing flying saucers on my eg1 paper. haha. haikal say he like my style of doing it while his style was sleeping for awhile then, angkat kaki hand up paper then jalan. haha. baek uh boii. and im so excited for tmr first day of fasting! i need to wear really nice and proper clothing. haha. told mommy to cook me nice nice food for sahur cause, i really need good food to keep my brain working the whole day and i'm having test. haha. so tmr, im gonna sahur, after that morning solat and i wont sleep since then.. cause my paper is in the morning so, i dont want to sleep after sahur. OMG! I FEEL SO EXCITED! i missed those mood swings i had for sahur, that I DONT WANT TO EAT UH, or closing my eyes while im eating. haha, i miss those parts. haha. and the best part was, TERAWIH AND GETTING BUBUR MASJID WITH SAB!! haha. that was the most awesome part, ge terawih with proper clothing semue, then selit belakang block hisap rokok. haha. omg, we little rascals. haha.

so here i end, cause, i still need to mug for, OMG-WHO-CREATED-THE-MODULE-ELTECH-and i need to bath, eat, eat drugs and then mug mug mug mug.

so "Mr Dragon is not ANGRY"
haha, read his labels? haha. funny right? i know.. Mr dragon is not Angry. haha. farid the dragon. haha. fierce. well HE IS fierce lorrr! the very first time i ever met him, OMG, god knows how i felt. i hated him. BUT now okay already? right? right?
hah. i know rright...hahaha!
haha, imgaine if he talks in dragon language: LOLS!!
"(MR)rarrrarr (DRAGON)rarrrarrrarr (IS)rarr (NOT)rarr (ANGRY)RAAWWWRRRAAAAAA!!! *with fire and special effects*
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAA
HHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHA
HAHAHAHAHA OMG! HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA!
okay, shuddup nana. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA OMG!! RAAAAAWWWRRRRRA!

haha.
*why so serious?*
ROFLMAO!!!!!

QARIANA ON DRUGS

2009-08-21T06:31:00.004+08:00

maybe due to my shock-ness that people leave my half way in BB thats why i got sick. MAYBE. because that never ever happened to me ever.
SHOCK OF MY LIFE.
first time some more, fuu. power sia.
haha.
look at that pills, omg. i finally can swallow the yellow and and the pink ones. but the big blue one is a killer! i mean, the big blue ones are very naughty little devils that cant go thru my throat, so i have to suffer everytime. damn it! only one boy truly understands that i cant swallow pills properly
*wink wink*
and only one boy knows that qariana won't entertain when people said sorry alot of times.
*wink wink*
"qariana mmg gitu =)"
haha, thats what i like about you hunnnn.
but, the next day qariana okay already mahh. see see! qariana action marah sekejap je. see see!
hehehe.
and you said to forgive him rright? i did my best rright? you know that rright??
i mean, i tried to talk to him thru msn, i think, im not sure if we're still IN TALKING TERMS.
i think, im not sure. its scary to talk to hot-tempered people you know. its like talking to a dragon. haha. farid the dragon. HAHAHA. ok shuddup.
"i hope we're not strangers no more mr dragon. i hope you understands that. cause, im in the position of not in talking terms with you because i was the victim being LEFT ALONE, its not vice versa. haha. im okay about what happened, how about you mr dragon?"

TODAY IS THE STARTING OF THE EXAMS. OMG. THIS IS REALLY SCARY.
I HOPE I WILL "PASS." MY RESULTS WILL BE REALEASE ON 18 SEPT 09.

TODAY'S PAPER IS ENGINEERING MATHS 1 : 2PM-4PM
TMR'S PAPER IS ELECTRICAL TECHNOLOGY : 9AM-11AM
MONDAY'S PAPER IS ENGINEERING MECHANICS : 9AM 11AM

right after 11AM- IM A FREE WILLY!!!
WILLY THE WHALE! YES UH!
but first, lets do today's paper right.
cheers people, besok dah puase! yay! yay!
then then then then exactly one month later DAH RAYE! YAY! YAY!
ok shuddup nana.
hopefully mr farid the dragon in talking terms with me already.
hopefully ELTECH in stuck in my brain for tmr paper.
I HOPE I DO REALLY WELL FOR MY EG1 TODAY.
i hope engmec is a bliss and should not be a naughty little devil paper on monday.

AMIN, AMIN IRABILALAMIN.

thank you.

2009-08-19T20:38:00.002+08:00

fever is killing me. i lost my voice. phone keeps ringing-been ignoring it.mood to study totally lost in mid air. im.so.dead. i put my hands down on this. promise-no bugging. no more outing. Cried non stop otw home yesterday, i was so tired and hungry and sick. i felt like vomiting all the while. told mom, and cried to her. didn tell anyone else about what happen.i felt like a moron. a true fantastic way to getting rid of me, finally mission accomplished isnt it? i bow down to you, deeply. i promise, no bugging. no more. i was so embitter about it. dum-witted me. melancholy- you and me, now. we're strangers. finally, i need to mug.

IM BORED WITH BORING FOTOES

2009-08-18T00:55:00.001+08:00

THIS IS RANDOM STUFF I DID.
IM SERIOUSLY NEED TO TAKE NICE PHOTOS NOW,

AND HAFIDZ, IF YOURE READING,
WHAT
IS
"TANGO
CHARLIE?"

huh??
bye.

ps: I GOT RUNNING NOSE! MY THROAT HURTS! IM SICK! OMG!

BOHO BOHO BOHO NANA AND HAIDAH WAYY!

2009-08-17T11:59:00.004+08:00

okay this one is when i told haidah that i found Vanessa Hudgens nude photos number 2. and i given her the link to that.
this is the face that i gave haidah when she said, Vanessa Hudgens nude photos was hot.
...
she said that its part of the ART.
and all i can say is. OMG HAIDAH!
yeap. haidah haidah.

okay. this photo, when were talking about Hafidz.
yes sotongman. haha.
we were talking about hafidz when i told her that i saw him with this headband on his head. HAHAHA. so haidah thought of this boho look. so we both took our hairband and put in on our forehead. without make-up and very messy hair. so here we have it, THE BOHO LOOK! inmitating hafidz with his headband and haidah tot he wants to do boho, so that why we wanted to try it out too. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.
(VERY BOHO, and just look at what we wear, so epic rright? i know, and haidah, thats not my mom's shirt OKAY! its more of the Lord Of the Rings night jumper for sleeping. asal boleh jek)

DO THE BOHO HAIDAH AND NANA WAY!

after that we plates for our hair. my hair is short that you cant really see tho. but nice rright. haha. i do it myself and haidah did hers too. haha.
GAGA TWINS BABEHHH!!!
love you haidah! muahzxxzxz!

YESTERDAY, apparently, i was studying at home before i went to study with farid, i got few question i dont really know how to do. so i asked Haidah. And she helped me and asked me to come online. after getting the answer, obviously we wont stop webcaming. and then..here comes the nonsense we did.

so after talking loads of craps. haidah showed me lots of blogs of her school bitches. i mean, girls in MI are a bitch, apart from whom i really know there lah. LUCKY I DIDN WENT TO THE GOD FOR SAKEN SCHOOL.
there even have a fatcist for god's sake! FATCIST! PEOPLE WHO DONT LIKE FAT PEOPLE! OMG. CURSE THEM!
(now i feel worse.)
God Bless Ngee Ann Poly and its Students, Lecturers, Cleaners and Junkies.
haha.
so after that i bid haidah farewell and went down to meet farid to study my ass up.
**********
after reached home, sotongman online and tried to cheer me up. thanks hafidz, it help, sincerely.
ahaa.
oke. bye peeps. see you went i see you.

ps: the "taking advantage of my friendship" boy is irritating and NOW, apparently disturbing me. i dont like it.
Don't Make me Hate you.
help. me. please.

IM SO ANGRY.

2009-08-16T16:01:00.004+08:00

seriously im really piss off today.
my buffalo brother was a pain in the butt.
perangai uh semue.
peh sombong.
and not only him.
im so angry right now
damnit!
YOURE SUCH A BIG STUPID CRAP ASSHOLE, RUDE AND HAVE AN ATTITUDE PROBLEM UP IN YOU ATTIC ASS!
ARGH!!!!!
YOU'RE SUCH A....
ARGH!!!!!

Dont make me hate you.

'Lovely sire, let's not stay comrade in a long run, since that is disfavour'

SIGH. you're so unpredictable.

2009-08-16T01:12:00.010+08:00

"Once there was a little girl, who never knew love, until a boy break her heart."
- taken from EMPIRE featuring Megan Fox.

which is hot. i mean, the words NOT HER/HIM. haha. thats what really occurs to me. hit me inside the brain for a little while.

guess what happened yesterday? after me and fatin finished stalking our primary target, she just sent me up till the chongpang macdonalds and i have to walk alone home......
and this is the worse part of it all. i kena disturb sia.
damnit, stupid fucking mat reps! damnit! i hate sia they all, mtf assholes. and true enough i went home alone that night and they was making the fun out of me. CANT SOMEBODY JUST WALK HOME SAFELY AND PEACEFULLY DAMNIT! ASSHOLES. usually when farid sent me home, such stuff wont happened and when i have to walk home alone, these stupid crapps happened, DAMN YOU fucking typical melayu. NBCB!
hurghk.
OKAY NANA. BREATHE IN BREATHE OUT.
chilllllll.

okay, so i met fatin to go to my school TODAY to print stuff and do most of her projects there. so there we went of to KFC first then to the NgeeAnn famous library. chey, ahem. haha. then i bought bubble tea and sat down while shes doing her stuff. then i was really bored that i take a scroll in the library. which was awesome, i mean, I LOVE BOOKS. i love it at all. i love it. love it. love. it.
HAHAHA.
so i took a book, which tittled: HOLOCAUST: the lives of the Jews.
this book was effing epic, and i just look at the pictures. its like a GOD FOR SAKEN place man. i mean, with the Nazis and everything shitknot, i wish i wasnt there and wasnt born at the time of the year. can you actually imgaine, children being carried away to some place where they were murdered just because they are JEWS. i mean, its not like im siding jews or something. i have no comments on that one, but can you actually just imagine the pain, being a child..and you have no choice. how about imgaining yourself an old Jewish man, stranded in the land full of Nazis and they making the crap out of you by asking you to stand along the side road and hang The Star Of David on your neck? i mean, epic world is a cruel world. SO EFFING CRUEL. and guess what? who's ideas was all that? hating the jews and everything? guess who? i bet you can already know.
that bloody idiot moronic with nothing better to do, short pathetic moustache with belah pepek hair.
haha. im just saying....this is really cruel and im a neutral. im neither supporting either sides.
then, i took a comic book and stare blankly at it. then i went to the magazine section.. which was so cool, i sat by the window on a lazy sofa and there i was reading all sort of TEENAGER ISSUES. haha. about boys, breasts, hair, sex, first kiss, long lasting kiss, boys talk, and many many more. and i gain TONS OF IDEAS. haha.
and so i went to work after that.......
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so here i am, at home @ 1.48am and blogging this. i feel, rright.....

we should mug first till we had enough of mugging. *wink wink*
i should stop CONTRADICTING myself. *wink wink*
i think i should stop worrying *wink wink*
i think i should meet up with sabrina soon *wink wink*
i think my feet smells *wink wink*
i should just keep things normal. *wink wink*
i think i should wink more. *wink wink*
just once more *wink wink*
HAHA.
we could be friends first, if that you wish *wink wink*
i think i wont bother you much so that you can study really really well *wink wink*
I THINK I SHOULD REALLY STAY AWAY FROM THE GOOD-FOR-NOTHING BOY, WHO TAKE THE ADVANTAGE OF MY FRIENDSHIP AND TREAT ME LIKE A FOOL *wink wink*
i think i should know more about you first.*wink wink*
SING: "WHAT I LIKE ABOUT YOU!!! IS THAT YOU KNOW HOW TO DANCE!!! LALALALALAL!"
i should really study hard to the maximum *wink wink*
i cant stop smiling *wink wink*
"MY HEART GOES TRALALALALLLLLLLALALA! TRALLALALALA IN THE MORNING!"
SO LETS BE NORMAL PEOPLE.
NORMAL.
AS IN NOORRRMALLL with the capital "n"
haha.
and we shud study study study study styudy sytusdy sutydus tydus dyust udysut usydut...

ok have a good night peeps.
btw, ive just realise, theres alot of cats under my block.
MEOW MEOW MEOW.
LMAO.
ok lets shuddup and sleep. shall we? :D

ps: i like actually like him huh. atlast. :)

MY FIRST STALKING ACTIVITY

2009-08-15T00:11:00.003+08:00

seriously. today was pure awesome. haha. awesome with no reasons.

haha. i didn go to school today, which was so NOT ME. really. i did woke up, because fatin called me, i did woke up, but in the end, i sleep back. up till 8.30 am. and my class starts at 9am.
OMG i know rright. ahaa. so i sit, think for a minute, what im gonna do for today, then i went to on my laptop and start doing crap with it, but i did some revision today, which was- average learning. i watch 10,000 BC while revising. and today, i ate subway. i knoww right?
subwayy... its not me, i didnt bought it, my brother bought it, a 6 inch long, or whatever it is. ahha. then i ate it happily while watching the dvd and i thrown away those PICKLES, CUCUMBER, TOMATO, AND OLIVES. weirds vegetables. lol.
thennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn, out of boredom, someone called me to HANG OUT. haha. fatin called me, saying that she got busted from work and with no plans. so i met her to do revision @ northpoint burger king and plan to go pool afterwards. haha. awesome plan for Friday.
so i met her about 4pm plus. then guess who i met?
(thats a reason why my eye twick a little on my left eye)
i saw hafidz. hafidz hanafi.
but the weird thing is, when he said hi, i was more focusing on his freakles on both of his cheeks. haha. poor thing, the older he gets, the more freakles he has. HAHA. sorry hafidz. :) the Disappear and Appear Man.
haha.
okay, about 8.30pm me and fatin went to safra to play pool but end up its not for NON MEMBERS. which was total suck. haha. then we end up sat by the LONGKANG, ahaa, the resevoir just beside the up building Hospital. haha.
we talk and talk about weird stuffs:-
SEX
PERIODS
SEX
BESTFRIENDS
SEX
BOYS
HER EXs
MY EX
haha.
MY LIFE
HER LIFE
HIM
HER
MY HIM
HER HIM
and i tried to tell fatin thats its not me, im not the girl that shes trying to relate too. seriously, she really thinks its me, but i say no. and i say, CAN YOU SEE?! DIDN YOU NOTICE. and she still not happy about it and insists its ME, ME, QARIANA. nope hunney fatin love, its not me OKAY? i know,even nazri predict it..but its not me, sure enough. cant you see.
im so not the one.
andddd... im not surprise if its not me.
ok?
haha. hilarious i know. i think red ants is up on my panties man, it hurts alot.
haha.
ok after that out friend farid join along. after about an hour or so, he went home.
???????
rright. pity him have to come down all the way there. tsktsktsk.
then after he walk to leave the place. me and fatin start walking too. haha.
anddd this is when the fun thing begins:

ME AND FATIN OFFICIALLY STALKED MR LITTLE GREY FRIEND.
haahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahaha!
this is hilarious! its like we're climbing up the stairs and down the stairs for like 3 or more times man. haha. and we are LITERALLY JOGGING along the road side. OMG. i cant believe it. haha. we just feeling curious and weird why our mr little grey friend behaving so weird today. haha. so we stalk him, otw back home. haha. OMG. theres this part which was super close, he can actually turn his head to the left and see me standing there, trying not to laugh. ahaa. me and fatin was so close with him, yet he didn notice. then, we were thinking, why did he took a longer way to home. so, the more curious we get, the more excitement we want to stalk him. so he took the bridge and we cross the road. then, we nearly bumped each other under a block, seriously MR LITTLE CUTE GREY FRIEND DIDNT NOTICE US! haha, we were like running around like crazy people. haha. then, mr grey man went missing for afew minutes, fatin was worried if WE WERE STALKING A REAL HUMAN, then i said, OF COZ WE WERE, HE JUST WENT TO A SHOP TO BUY STUFF. and sure enough! i thought correctly. HAHA. HE BOUGHT A DRINK FOR HIMSELF. hahahahahahahaha! anddd we were standing right infront of him between walls, and he didnt notice us. FOR GOD'S SAKE! we even ran infront of him! he didnt notice at all! OMG! haha. funny little grey man. haha. BUT, he did reach home safely, we saw him climbing the stairs to his house. SEE PPL, me and fatin are really nice ppl, we stalk due to valid reasons, cause we care and curious to know what is happening and why our friends behaving weirdly. and so, WE STALKED THEM. and thru enough me and fatin predict (at the end of the stalking session) out little grey friend is under stress. haha. BODY LANGUAGE BEBEH! haha.

so thats about it.
have a goodnight rest peeps. cause i know, i need one.
cheers!
anddd
happy birthday to weixing.
happy birthday to DOUBLECHEESE COUSIN FI FI FI FIZALLLL! MUAH TO YOU CUZZIE!
ok.
bye.

I PREFER THE WORD: STRANGE.

2009-08-13T08:28:00.005+08:00

seriously, things has been getting really really weird these days.
im in love a game character in abang's ps3 game,
he's name is Altair from Assassin Creed. he's so freaking hawt like to the freaking maximum.
and another weird thing is...i really got this strong feeling that im so gonna retain.
that sucks you know.
really.
and ANOTHER weird thing is, my cousin and i face a same situation yet, its the exactly the same week just different days, his on the monday and im on the tuesday.
cousins, what do you expect huh.
ignorent is a bliss. and fizal the cousin ask me to forget about it.
thanks doublecheese. i shall do it.
now, exams in 8 days, and serious enough, ive not been focusing right. ive not covered the whole chapters for exams, and like sabrina said, if i got no "kaki" to smoke with, i jolly well talk to my leg and smoke alone outside the school gates. i miss sab so much, i wished i could laugh with her. to ease the troubles away.
and yesterday, seriously- I FELT THAT I HAD BEEN STABBED IN THE BACK. REAL HARD.
my main point was to tell you hows my holiday was, and tell you my part of the story, but apparently it turn out real different that i lost the mood to talk or to smile.
and now, guess what?! i lost the mood to interact and the connect to you. whatever assholes. i dont give a damn anymore. really, thought of you (both, more or whatever) really disgust me and no offence, if im mute when i saw you. haha. obvious isnt it. oh well, thats life, at least once in the while soneone gonna get a dagger sticking out in their butt sometimes.
and mine, IS STICKING OUT AND IT HURTS.
so emo,
shuddup luh mtf.
haha.
okay, where were we, yeah....about things happening now so weird, the most weirdest part of my entire life is going to tremble down, and crash..KABABBOOM. just wait and see people.
really. im not being degil, but thats the fact haidah.
ehk, since when haidah appear in the conversation. haha. this is really funny.
hilarious i might say.
and fazrul the another classmates of mine, whom is 17 with really nice (average hawt) looking body said:
"i'll beat that dude with my balloons for you. *winks winks*"
omg. haha, that is super hilarious. seriously. haha. how nice of him.
even the two weird, weirder, weirdest couple can guess whats happening. hey, i didnt tell a shit. they guess it. like my problem like that.
haha
oh well, hope Altair is a real man, i'll be his admirer of the real assassin.
okie, i gotta bath and meet my darleng sabrina, and we gonna smoke our life thru the miseries.
(like real only)
catch the gudang garam peeps. MUAHZXZXXZXZXZXZX!
:)

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ok, back at home. i just went to study outside just now at CC. i was freaking sleepy to the effing max, like seriously.

i didnt ate the whole day. i smoke alot to cover up my hunger. idk why im starving myself. but when i reached yishun, i bought myself mcdonalds cause, my tummy was in pain. anyway, i think they put sleeping pills in my food and coke, sure enough after i ate the food, I FEEL SLEEPY LIKE SHIT! omg. really, i cant help it at all. but, no worries, i manage to study what i have to. and i did it well. cheers to me. now, im planning to sleep and wake up real early to study back. 7 days to exams.....OMG.

haha, today was the boring-iess day of my entire schooling life. really. DEP was cancelled. ELTECH was rubbish. i didnt went to EG1. ENGMEC is forever the same thing. haha. and during break, me, brenda, charlotte, and yuenleng went to watch Australia on dvd at school library.

OMG. I DIDNT KNOW THAT MOVIE WAS SO EFFING NICE. I LOVE IT.

wow, seriously, today.. i feel like crying. seriously. crying. fazrul say dont cry so much. haha. joker.

seriously, i really felt like crying. omg.

UH. SHUDDUP LUH NANA.

okey. fine. im so gonna bath now and sleep. and wake to study my ass up back.

btw, tmr, i come to school for only 4 hours and then im a free bird. free as in, FREE. haha. crapp.

seriously, i got no plans for tmr, i might be finishing about 1pm.

early rright? i know. haha. any one else need my accompany? movies? dinner? lunch?

TEXT ME DAMNIT.

IM SO DO-NOT-HAVE-PLANS-YET.

haha. love ya peeps. night!

muahx.

2009-08-10T23:02:00.002+08:00

you are now @ Qariana's Blog. muahhxzxzxz!

anyone buy me loads of teddy bears, i promise, i love you with all my heart.
:)

nazri the anching.

nazri thinks he's supermodel. BOO.

i'm usually hard to hold on.

2009-08-08T02:04:00.009+08:00

okay peeps. as promise, i'll post some awesome ground breaking news here right? and i shall do it now, in a minute times.
let me describe today's REFLECTION JOURNAL: (lol!)
i miss my ex-northlander friends so much.
i miss the laughter i had with them.
i do now, believe that, FIRST BAD IMPRESSION will end up both parties in really really good terms later on.
csha was tasteless. really.
i didnt know our nicknames back in secondary school lasted till now: "JIWE / JI"
i realise, im not that bad looking after all (:
i realise that im a SUCKA FOR GENTLEMENS
i want to be treated like a lady. (wow!)
i realise that, my laughter had volume down to silent since i step in ngee ann poly.

and here come the awesome part:
i get what i wanted and what ive missed.
i love you people:
yadd.
hanis.
farid.
fatin.
nazri.
sabrina.

our prompt legacy to my realisation what ive missed:
haji lane street.
awesome.

rright after i finish my prac, MY ELECTRICAL ELECTRONICS PRACTICAL SKILLS module, i rush to meet darleng farid. omg, i felt really good after ive done the alarm clock thing. OMG. congrats to nana the brilliant. haha. the thing was easy to do and i felt great after doing it and the things that i fixed, actually works. haha. i'll post the alarm clock soon.(:
but thanks to lut said that it looks like it "Wasn't" my peice of work. :(
wth. thanks lut... ahha.
anyway, meeting farid was really cool, cause, HE CAME TO NGEE ANN POLY FOR THE FIRST TIME HELL OF HIS LIFE. haha. but he complains that ngeeann was too humid. no matter. he still say ngee ann is cool and best and big. we encourage lut to attend the csha outing but he said his too shy about it and weird thing is, he slept in the bus all the way to changi airport and didnt come to the outing at all. and he really apologise for it.
apologise accepted.
really.
dont feel bad lut, no worries. :]
after that we headed to BUGIS to meet up with the hommies yawwwll! haha.
still feeling weird cause, its like the couples outing day sia. which was lucky i brought farid, OR NOT, I'LL BE THE LAMP POST FOR A NIGHT.
YADD WITH BELOVED HANIS
NAZRI WITH BELOVED FATIN
FARID WITH THE JAMBU QARIANA
LMAO!!!
which was so sad lor. thats why farid came all the way to ngeeann to go with me together. whohoo. thanks farid the farid. ahha. then we went to eat at ZAMZAM, exchange food along the way cause we're too full. haha. then nazri and fatin came along and then yadd and hanis came too. THEN FARID SAID TO ME THAT HIS SISTER THINKS IM PRETTY AND CUTE.
wow. joke of the day mann.
LOVE IT. HAHA.
after that, here comes the csha.
omg.omg.omg.
like i said. i laugh so loud today like NOBODY BUSINESS.
i was so freaking happy and elated about the outing, i thought the outing is gonna be weird, but it was, pure-awesome. i love them all.
made my day.
and made the weekends sounds so good.
i love it. so much.
the jokes, the sharing of one ice lemon tee bottle, the csha, the throwing of ROLLER COASTER crakers along the way, the rolling of ciggarettes, the riddles that they made, the funny funny things they said, the missed faces that i missed.
all was full-filling.
i love it so much. really. GEREK LUH SIAL!
ahha.
the next outing, farid gonna organise it. haha. happening gyler bapak nye tak leh angs luh seh!
rabak rabak.
hahaha.

so here the pictures that was taken, theres more, but you guys have to wait.

im not going for my BTE tmr @ 8am. serious shit.
im going to my eltech remedial @ 10am tmr. i dont know if im alive by then.
im going to work tmr @ 6pm. im not sure if i can survive with the work pressure.

so have a great weekend people.
i hope i do.

and sabrina, thanks baby for the 2 extra stick of gudang garam signature.
yadd, november baby wayy to late.
hanis, your hilarious.
farid, thanks for the food, but still i'll pay you back. dont argue back. jgn degil, aku tak suke org degil2 tau. lol.
nazri and fatin, the weird and weirder and the weirdest couples ive ever met.

hearts this lots.

i'll be dead in the morning.
please pray for me, i'll survive the whole year thru out.
peace out home dawg.
muahx!

MY MOOD DISAPPEAR IN THE THIN AIR.

2009-08-05T23:38:00.007+08:00

SERIOUSLY. i hope i dont drag it to the whole month. and i bet its not my weekend this coming horray SATURDAY AND SUNDAY. which is weird.
i dont want to elaborate on that. farid knows why i feel really really sick in the mind today. and he even told me not to bother much about what's the current situation is now. and he says that, i shouldnt feel a thing. OMG, HOW COULD I NOT!!
i feel like sick in the mind and brain. and seriously, my mind and brain didnt function well today, really. i daydream on the way to school. i even miss a train station. dress up late. totally blown out hair. its a total mess up. and im totally hungry to the core but i just dont feel like chewing on things. omg. why is this happening to me.
nana, you really a bimbotic bunny. really.
and sya, im totally in the hot soup crying out loud.
and haidah, i think i got only one choice then.

omg.omg.omg.omg.omg.omg.omg.omg.omg.omg.omg.
and i make it as a LAST ON THE LIST category today to sip sap sop before fasting month arrives. haha. and i feel real awesome when i get to meet sab, i laugh my way thru and the worries disappear. and fatin was there too, farid as well. i bought the ALL TIME FAVOURITE brand and sit one corner at the back of amk lane and 6 sticks disappear here and there.
perfect thing to end the school hours.
seriously, if only sab is in my school, every 5mins, you'll see me at the corner near the stairs at the front gate of school. haha. im not you think i am.
CK DEPARTMENT STORE, HERE I COME TO STEAL.
haha. sure enough, you know im kidding. haha.

so, im really excited on friday, ITS CSHA DAY with yadd, hanis, fatin, naz, farid and myself, whoohoo! nice thing to start the weekend. i hope. haha.
imsoexcitedliketothehellcoremann!!!!
wheehooheee.

anddddd. today apparently is luthafiz birthday. haha. i called him to wish him and played the HAPPY BIRTHDAY SONG to him. haha. happy 20-teen birthday to him.
anddd, happy birthday to my ex-yishun primary school mates AbuBakar Omar and Shahidah Said. haha. happy 18th birthday to them too.

"catch you on the fly hommie"
ps:watch the ATL-WEIGHTLESS vid. it will blow your mind. so nice. :)

YAY! YAY! YAY!

2009-08-01T22:26:00.003+08:00

im not so sure why am i so happy about but, im just feeling happy. even when my mom and dad just scolded me just now. im just being so gay rright now. okay.

i tell you what. just a few mins ago, i got a new study date to be with this upcoming exams week. and im so excited! ahha. my IS groupie Haiqal is helping me with my ENGMEC! yes uh! best best! im not sure why i feel so insecure about his answer when he said he wanted to teach me that i kept on repeating the same question whether he really gonna teach me. and lastly he replied,"yes qariana"
alurmak. so malu man. i sound so despo. HAHA. fuck lah. this times, in education period, kiasu and despo is A MUST.
haha. so i might be seeing him when im in loft. atleast, i can get out and study with people whom im comfortable with!
so thats the first reason why im happy.

the second reason is, my studying mood is up. YAY!

the third reason is the sotong guy said he miss me. its not that IM HAPPY, that kind of happy..its just that im glad. atleast i know, im not being hate. sotong man...oh well. i wont spat on you this time round. i wont, promise ;))

fourth is luthafiz just passed his car tp prac yesterday. haaha. im happy for him. BECAUSE I WAKE HIM UP SO THAT HE WILL NOT BE LATE, THATS WHY! hhaaha. and then after he passed he call me and ironically said that he failed. ANYHOW ONLY. haha. good for him. i might get free rides to school, as long as i dont have to travel to bedok. ahha.

next is that, I MET UP WITH MY LUP LUP GENG EX NORTHLANDERS YESTERDAY, with hanis, yadd, aqil.. thats all, but the fun was there. like OMG. i miss them so much. if only they were in Ngee Ann Poly now schooling with me. wouldnt that be ggreat? i'll be laughing every day at school.:((((((
I WANT TO LAUGH LIKE I USED TO IN SECONDARY SCHOOOL. :(
my oh my. i miss them so much now.
so much, more than ever.
oh well.

next, the reason why im happy is because,........IM NOT SURE WHY. haha.
oh well, i had enough of typing for now, if theres more,
i'll promise to type it out.
I HOPE.

haha.
love you peeps.

RANDOM FOTOES!

2009-07-31T13:11:00.004+08:00

2009-07-27T00:50:00.003+08:00

ok. i know peeps. that it is a sin not to update the blog when you have one.
im so sorry. but when youre pack with stuff at school, outside and work.. this is what you get.
i dont have much to talk about tho.
so things happen so weird this days.
i got no reason why.
and im not gonna talk about it.
cause i think. it would be gross to talk all over again and again.
so my past week, have been amazingly surprisingly nice.
go with the flow kind of shit.
im not gonna elaborate about it.
ask me and i'll tell you.
i dont know why but i think i syok with this one guy, i think haidah would know who and she would be DEAD surprise who it would be.
her lips like got salt like that.
so yah, haidah. i think i got syok at him. funny i know. ironic i know. but funny, i know.
why? i dont know.
so weird.
cause its been a week since ive never been with him, and things been really weird.
for me luh.
okay whatever.

so school is school.
prac sucks as usual.
exams are nearing for NO reasons.
test are for dickheads.
ASSIGNMENTS HAS BEEN HELL.
TUTORIAL CLASS HAS BEEN SUCKED.
LECTURE CLASS HAS BEEN SLEEPY.
and i found new trip to go to school, bus 74. either to town. to yishun. to amk. so cool.
and now, i do not have to go school by train then.
whoowhoo.
save up my money to buy tons of clothes.
and farid present, cause i really feel bad up to my lungs for not buying him stuff.
*head bang on the wall*
i need more cash. more than ever.
i still dont know what to buy for farid.
but i know what my new friend luthafiz wants for his bdae. a toy car.
haha.
rright.

good news. i might put my blog on public now.
private is dang boring.

IM SO SORRY FARID!

2009-07-27T00:48:00.000+08:00

I FEEL SO BAD TO FARID FOR NOT BUYING HIS BIRTHDAY PRESENT.
I AM SO SORRY FARID!
I'LL BUY YOU ONE SOON.
PROMISE!

and here it goes again.

2009-07-20T06:51:00.002+08:00

he came down all the way to yishun to teach me the autocad shits. i only msg him, I DONT KNOW HOW TO DO :'( and he came down about 9pm to yishun. and we sat at Northpoint Macdonald to do the revision exercise together. as i said most of it, he do it. i just sat there jaw dropping, figuring how to do it. we end up finish it till the end about 11pm. but, i really really feel sad for him.
CAN YOU IMAGINE HE WENT HOME ALL THE WAY FROM YISHUN TO BEDOK??
AND HIS CLASS STARTS AT 8AM THE NEXT MORNING?
CAN YOU IMAGIN HOW LONG IS THE JOURNEY?
but, ive already said sorry to trouble him, but he is the one who insisted of coming over. NOT ME.
moreover, i said, if i see him in school today, i would give him a chocolate. haha.
and he's been asking for a car.
???? nevermind i buy a toy car for him. and farid's belated bdae present...crapp. i still dont know what to give him. ahyoh.

THATS not all peeps, he even ask me to wake him up this morning to school. which i did okay. and he answered. now i know how fatin felt waking up nazri all the time.
a real trouble-up-in-the-butt.
hahaha.
okay, thats all....maybe maybe i might be going to stay after school with him to study together.
i think.
but for sure, i'll study after school with or without anyone. i dont mind. :)

you have not read anything yett.

2009-07-19T11:19:00.010+08:00

this is for sya. i know shes anxious to know more about it. so here it goes dude... enjoy.

so, the last two days had been really weird. now my phone is filled with his msgs, which is effing weird and wrong. omg,its like me and him been replying the msgs non stop. which is like sooo effing weird. (okay, ive said it two times damnnit.) now, the smsing part is nothing. the past last two days too, we give each othe wake up calls. on the last friday, i was so effing tired to the hell core so i really had difficulty in waking up for school. so, i put as my personal msg in my msn for no reasons, like FOR FUN, then he read it and decided to wake me up on friday morning-willingly. without me asking him. HOW WEIRD? haha. so whatever, i take the offer tho. so he did wake me up and i did woke up. end of story.
so the next day was saturday and i need to be at my work place at 7am. and he got his soccer practice at 8am. so he want me to wake him up, since he've already wake me up the day before. so, yeah. whatever, i wake him up. OMG. it was such a-omg. haha. boys sleeps like dead people. seriously, no shit. i give him atleast 28 missed call and he didnt woke up. so on the 29th times, he answered my call and woke up. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. omg. boys..boys..are aliens.
then today, on sunday morning, he ask me to wake him up again cause he got soccer tournament at Kolam Ayer. wherever the place is i dont know. haha. so i was so effing tired this morning that i atleast give him the wake up call. i dont know how many calls i gave cause i was half sleeping while holding the phone next to my ear. haha. but i know, its not as many as 28 missed calls. haha. so once he answered and said "HELLO.." i put down the phone and go back to sleep cause i know, he had already woke up. haha. and he called me again, but i didnt bother to answer it cause im SO EFFING TIRED LIKE HELL. so there it goes.

ive been asking alot of people like, izdihar, fatin, nazri..it wrong to be friends with someone's boyfriend. not just friends but as close friends that you have met within 3 to 4 months. and i ended got a lecture from izdi, telling me not to jump to conclusion that i actually LIKE him cause he is being nice to me. while fatin and naz says, its not wrong and fatin still insist that he likes me thats why. and sya, i know youre reading this too...fishy or fishnet, you still thinks he likes me? BUT THIS IS SO WRONG!
we went to have lunch or dinner together for like 3 times. and he msgs me randomly and jokes about stuff in the sms. msn chat with me. asking me to study with him after school. go for extra lessons with him even if i dont want to. insist me of going to his soccer tournament which i dont want to, and i didn went. help me on my school stuff even if i didn asked help from him. willingly help me in anyway-waking me up, going to a place with me, asking me to take the same route home with him, willingly to spent his after school hours to teach me sch stuff.
isnt it weird? and sya. i haven really break it to him in "SINDEH" him. i call you and i'll explain later. hehe.
so how? im just on the flow and i follow it. but inside me it saying this is so wrong. and people, i know in your heart its wrong too.

okay HERE COMES THE WEIRD PART. lut's friend, who is way cuter and way way way way cuteeeee than anyone else ive ever met. he is so effing cute, like OMG. his name is haikal. but he's real name is ryan haikal. he is weird and i can feel that im jumping to conclusion. i think he likes me. for real. i call him Superstar and he actually wanted to call me hotstuff, but it is irony, seriously. so i told him to call me Honeystar! HAHAHA. cute rright. at first he talks like normally then after afew session chat with him, he start to talk weird. you i you i that kind of thing, but i still stick to my english. hahaha. unlike me and lut, we talk aku kau aku kau, but we are close in a weird way. ahhaa. and yesterday this haikal guy wanted my number, and for god's sake, i gave it to him-just like that. oh hooh. cause i know, he's lut frend and they always go together no matter where, so i trust him and give it to him. oh well, if theres anything wrong, i can always go to lut. :P

theres more, but my hmk online is waiting for me. so need to go off now.
:)
watch me fly high above the sky and to heaven:)

MY HAPPY WEEKEND ON SATURDAY! :))

2009-07-19T00:41:00.009+08:00

can you guys spot the LITTLE RASCAL on the back of nazri's head.
little devil horn.

based on true story. and its really a disturbing story.

i call it the KOTAK KOTAK DAY!

weird. people is staring at us in town. especially at Farid. lol.

i love borders.

we sat infront of borders.

farid new hairstyle. recommended by myself.

edited.

today, working at sheraton was a piss of. seriously. i didnt book my name for the night shift, BUT MY NAME WAS APPEARED THERE! its so irony man, if i need a shift on saturday at night, they wouldnt want to give me. fuckheads people.
actually on this day, me fatin and farid planning to watch harry potter, but since nazri is working and fatin and my name is on the night shift, we decided to try and find any replacement who would want to replace our position. lucky farid that he dont have to work during the night shift.
TO CUT STORY SHORT.

fatin continue with her night shift.
farid went home at 6pm.
nazri still working.
and ME=went home at 6pm.

and ended up watching movie with farid.
BUT SERIOUSLY, I DONT KNOW WHY WE WORE THE SAME KOTAK KOTAK SHIRT. seriously!
ME AND FARID ALREADY AGREED THAT WE WOULD NOT WEAR THE SAME OUTFIT AGAIN, because its weird to the hell core. and we agreed that we should bring loads of frends together as we go out together. HAHA. OF COZ LAH, WE TWO GO OUT ONLY, ITS WEIRD TO THE HELL CORE AND PEOPLE WAS LIKE LOOKING AT US. ITS EFFING WEIRD!
RIGHT FARID??
HAHAHAH!
but, most of it farid is the one who is perasan that people is actually LOOKING at him.
hahaha.
but i want to say this: TWO THUMBS UP FOR FARID TO DRESS UP WELL!!

the movie is disturbing. and i dont like it. farid says i complain too much. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
i even complain why the bus arrive so late. ahaha. omg, broken english. haha.
anyway, after the movie, we sat infront of borders. then we walk at the back of wisma to get a bus to yishun. and we ride 167 till the macdonalds drive thru. and we ate supper then farid sent me home. seriously, i told farid to sent because im scared of the old lady who sells things, its the current issue man now! serious shit. NOW MY WHOLE FAMILY KNOW IT ALREADY!!
IM SO SCARED!
I DONT WANT TO COME HOME LATE.
IM NOT GONNA OPEN THE DOOR WHEN IM ALONE AT HOME.
I WOULD NOT WANT MOMMY TO BE LEFT ALONE AT HOME, AGAIN!
I WOULD START SAYING MY PRAYERS ON THE WAY TO SCHOOL, AND ON THE WAY BACK HOME.
omg, this is so effing scary. dont you think?
OH MYYYYYYYYY!!!!
WHY IS THIS HAPPENING MANN!!!
I DONT LIKE IT!!!!!!!!
I HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM SO SCARED LIKE, TO THE HELL CORE SCARED!!!!!
oh well. i think i better be more scared to Allah s.w.t than all this things.

oh well. here where it ends. SYA, CONTINUE READING. YOU ABOUT TO READ SOMETHING REALLY EFFING WEIRD WHICH YOURE WAITING FOR.
:)

IM TRULY SORRY.

2009-07-17T23:32:00.001+08:00

I'VE PROMISE THAT IM GONNA UPDATE, BUT I DIDN'T SO PLEASE DO FORGIVE ME. :)
I'LL UPDATE SOON ENOUGH OKAY?
stay happy. and if ANYONE YOU KNOW, not able to read my blog, please feel free to tell me and i'll add them. (conditions apply)
HAPPY WEEKENDS:)

Fed Up Beyond All Recognition- FUBAR

2009-07-14T23:32:00.004+08:00

ive promised to all of you that im not gonna talk to him right, when im in class later. I really promised not gonna too, but after i blog in (at home), he msg me afew seconds later..and like it or not, i have to talk to him....

so he msg me asking me to come early to school to accompany him this morning, cause he was alone at school. omg. can you believe it, i shud be jumping with joy at puke due to excitement-but i wasnt. instead i took it as a frend to frend thing. i answer him as usual and joke about it abit and came early to school, FOR HIM.

so i grab a polo tee with my skirt and beg pack, vans shoes and out of the house. and otw there, i saw dashini along the way and i went to school with her. once i reached school i take my temp and went to find him, so i called him and there he was, with his frend. so i went there to and sit beside him. and apparently, i got no idea why he feeling bored and hurried me to come faster to meet him before class. he have his frend sitting with him and further more he is playing PRO EVOLUTION in his laptop, so why he needs me to come early?
*boys are aliens*

after that we when to class together. the weird thing is, along the way.. i was so quiet. i was trying not to talk to him, as i promised. BUT IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE cause he is making jokes and i was laughing and i cant hide it. after we reach the classroom,(this is the funny part) we went a peek inside the class. apparently haiqal was quarantine for 7 days and its so weird without him, so we went inside to see whether theres alot of ppl who attend the class. so we peek and we didnt see our group members then we ran down to buy coke since i was so effing thirsty. HAHA. funny right, i know. hahaha. so funny. hahahaha.

then we went inside the class, about 10mins late. haha,so i got my coke and i sat at my usual table with no one beside me. THATS A USUAL THING. and then he came to sit beside me. NOW THATS A UNUSUAL THING. so lut was asking me how to do his msn thing nicely and do his mozilla firefox themes and all thats why he was sitting next to me. which was weird lah, ahhaa, we've been trying lots of themes to suit for our liking and the whole 4 hours of the module i didnt pay attention at all and i was laughing all the way thru when he sat next to me. which was hilarious lor, he's so funny. so effing funny. then he was playing LEFT 4 DEAD in his laptop and i love when i watch ppl play, i have that habit ever since my brother got his first PS1. so i watch him play and i was so engross that i want to listen also, so i shared and kaypo over the headphones and listen to him playing the game. haha. nana so kaypo.

after school, i was so desperately HUNGRY and lut was hungry as well so he ajak me to go to his frend recommended place to eat at the back of our school-AL-AMEEN. HAHA. so the journey to that coffee shop was so far away and i got no energy to walk somemore that i ask zainal to sent us there. HOW NO SHAME AM I DAMNIT! but who cares, i still have free rides..hahhaahahahahha!
so i order what i want to eat and lut order his. zainal didnt join us cause theres no parking lot for him for park his car. oh my, so i went to eat with lut only and only him. so effing weird man. i know he observing me, which was so weird. i know, duhh he was sitting infront of me. he ask me about my peircing and all and my specs and all. OMG. he even look at me from the corner of my eye. SO EFFING WEIRD MANN. thats not all, he even ask me to go and study with him after that. he asked me to go school back and study with his frends, which i actually did, cause i need to study too. so along the way otw to school we walked together and talk talk talk talk talk and mostly im the one who is laughing more more more more more. haha, he is just a hilarious guy. really.

so when we've reach the school we went to school lib to see his frend and ask her to teach us. and the first impression i met his frend, she said "THIS ONE IS YOUR GIRLFREND UH?" i was like..aha.wth. and i quickly say and corrected her "IM JUST HIS FREND" oh well. haha. the study part was nice, i managed to do stuff that i didn know i can do. HAHHAAHA.

so after the study part, we went home. apparently i want to try out new routes to school and home, so lut suggested that i shud take a bus to amk hub, so indeed i tried and i sat the bus with him till WE REACHED AMK hub. and then we talk talk talk talk non stop, mostly he is the one who is talking. haha. he even willingly to go with me next tuesday to BBDC after his car prac in the morning. haha. see how it will turn out then. haha. i didn ask him ehh, hes the one who is excitedly wanted to go with me there. so i take it as an inviitation. HEHEHE. so yeahh, after that he walked with me all the way to mrt station and then he went off to go back home, I THINK. omg. since the morning 11.50am till 7.45pm i stick with him like glue sia. oh myy.

THIS IS WRONG, SO WRONG.
i mean, he have a gf already sia, im so dead if the gf knows. but haidah and sya think the other way round. sya asked me to jual mahal siket. after lut sent me off to mrt station i quickly call sya and tell her about it. after that haidah call afew hours later and i told it to her. and otw now, i told elle about it. OH MY OH MY!
they thinks that he.. oh no, im not gonna say it. its private i know.
so im gonna stop here.
oh yeah, btw, i want to thanks SABRINA SALIM to give me a belated bdae present just now when i was under my block studying with farid. guess what she gave me???
JENG JENG JENG!
A TWILIGHT POSTER!!!! omg! its so nice of her, eventhough we've not talk or meet for so long, she still knows my best interest. love ya sab. :)

DRIB: Don't Read If You're Busy.

2009-07-14T10:13:00.006+08:00

O-M-EFFING-G.
SERIOUSLY-I THINK ITS NOT 3% AT ALL.

cause seriously yesterday (monday), i was really hoping to see him. really really hoping to see him. i complain to elle about why im not seeing him YET. i was so depressed futher more i was fasting yesterday and my mood was curbside. look at my face above. that was elle point of view i was PALE and my lips was DRY. and she was asking me to call my mom and break my fast, no matter i didnt. i waited till i can really break my fast and wow. the feeling was great. I DID IT.
okay about yesterday, otw home after ive break my fast in Makan Place @ Hungry Jack, i went to the school bustop and waited for bus 61 to Bukit Batok Mrt Station. i was really atleast hoping to see him there-somewhere. and, i think Allah really make wish came true...

and there he was.....
with his ite frend girl. (she ask for my name but i dont even know hers. im so bad!) and i was like so delighted and happy. i was looking up to the sky and said THANK YOU! i was so happy, excited and nervous. which was so weird. WHY AM I NERVOUS. and the best part is that, i feel like puking and coughing. which is my natural symptoms when im nervous. O-M-G. thats why i thought 3% is bullshit,i think its more. and another best part is that, he didnt see me when i was there. i was so direstly infront of his face and he didnt see me, which was so weird! i was there infront of him. i didnt want to say hi first cause it will be like slut + bitchy + asshole = boyfriend stealer.
but atlast, i think he saw me when he got up on to the bus. which was too late,apparently.
okay, whatever. i was so delighted that i msg elle about it.

andddddd, this morning elle told me a great depressing news that makes my paper heart tear. oh well. i bet haidah, syahidah, fatin, and farid will able to guess it.
yeap people. its true. positive man.
morever, sya knows him, haha. thats was the shocking part, cause he use to be in guitar club last time in ITE SEMEI. i bet, if i tell anyone his name, all of them would know.
oh well.
and i was so freaking sad right now, what a bad wake up call. really, make my morning such a BAD day. well, thats only a bad moment, im not gonna make my day thru out bad.

wow, see what i told ya people, ive always trust my gut feelings and its true right?!
see, i hate it when im right.
and i hate it to say "I Told You So"
ohhhhhh nana. what is happening to you. why are you always falling for the wrong man at the wrong time. why is your life so ironic?
and its a NO-WONDER, he's friends was looking at me one kind, maybe they thought that i was trying to be bitchy with him. HEY, i didnt know nothing okay, at first.

TO HAIDAH: I GUESS BABY, WE'RE IN THE SAME BOAT. I NEED TO FORGET HIM AND LIKE YOU SAID, I NEED TO. BUT IN YOURE SITUATION, I THINK ATLEAST YOU CAN TRY SNATCHING HIM AWAY FROM HER. BUT, FOR MY SITUATION, ITS A DEAD COLD END.OMG HAIDAH, WHY ARE WE IN THE SAME BOAT ALL THE TIME? i think we're are really the long lost twins.

TO SYA: dude if your reading this. O-M-EFFING-G... im so depress. thats all i can say.

TO ELLE: beb. like what we've promise and make a deal about. i said, if he do not have, I'LL BE BUYING YOU BUBLETEA. but since he have, IM NOT GONNA TALK TO OTHER BEINGS FOR 3 DAYS. so, im not gonna talk to ppl for 3 days. thats include him, if he talks to me.

TO FARID: yeahh, aku kene carik lebih banyak ikan kat luar. theres alot of goodlooking guys outside there. yeah.....

so freaking ironic man. so freaking ironic. I-R-O-N-I-C.
:(
now,i have to go to school, which happen to be in the same class with him and im in the same group with him.
how awkward would that be seh.
i dont feel like going school today. just because, im gonna see him. :(
:(
:(
:'(

HAPPY 21ST BDAE TO FARID!!!

2009-07-14T10:01:00.004+08:00

farid's bdae present from shikin: a levis watch. FUUYYOOOHHH!!!

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO FARID!
ON 13 JULY 2009!!!
(sorry but the post was a day later than the actual date cause im so tired to blog in yesterday)

To Farid: NANTI KALAU AKU DAH KUMPUL DUIT, AKU BELI KAU SOMETHING K? SORRY AKU TAK DAPAT BELI KAN PAPE DULU, I'LL BUY FOR YOU SOMETHING SOON K! hehe! AND FARID PLEASE, MAKAN2 BANYAK2 BOLEH TAK? AHYOH KADAWALEK!
HAHAHAHA!
HAPPY 21TH BIRTHDAY FARID THE FADDY!!
WHOOWHOOO!

wah shit.

2009-07-12T21:34:00.003+08:00

i feel like shit now.
:(

now, i got no mood to go to school. cancel tuesday and thursday.
im not looking forward for school. AT ALL.
boo to nana.
im so sad. :(

"sebagai manusia,kita sayang pada mu" 2

2009-07-12T18:39:00.009+08:00

this is totally my 24/7 face while staring in the screen of my laptop. haha. this is hilarious isnt it? this is the only time where you can see that i look really bad when im at home. AND EXCUSE ME:IVE BATHED when i took this foto. haha.So im totally bored as you can see my face from this pics.

haidah had already told me her plans of going away. which is weird. cause. idk, i just find it weird, i might need to ask her. i did just now,but end up we webcam and laugh the whole way thru that i forgot to ask her properly. so haidah, who is !@#$% exactly?
TODAY,im being in a really good mood that i do my autocad assignment 8. which apparently, the teacher had not teach the class yet. but i manage to do it and finish it. WOW. im proud of myself. maybe because due to lut:) teaches me that i have more confidence in doing my autocad! hehe. macam pahammm.
And today, apparently my mom and dad is not at home, me and my brother watch 4 dvds today, to fill up our boredom. we watched: night at the museum 1, ice age 2, 80 days around the world, pirates of the carribean:the world's end.
i ate 2 1/2 BOXES OF MCD'S CINNAMON MELTS. o-m-effing-g.
i literally told elle who i like now. only 3%, no big deal sia. haha. no lah,just stupid feelings of mine, WHO KNOWS THAT DUDE ALREADY HAVE A GF! oh myy. hhaha. crazy me.
NOW, im excited for school. can imagine that?? Qariana excited for school for the first time. and im excited for Tuesdays and Thursday. haha. crapp.

okay, so now ive read like 3/4 of the HIJAB SANG PENCINTA and i discover this one cool thing. and that is: when you happened to be lost in the jungle, OR maybe you are not.just that,you wanted to go to that place and you know the way it is just that, no matter how many hours it took, you still did not reach the place. maybe, its the spirits or the guardian of the jungle/forest is trying to make you lost and unable you to get out from the place. SO WHAT SHOULD YOU DO?
first, you must know afew lines or ayat ayat suci AL QURAN, that would be greatful. while your reciting the prayers in your heart, grab a handful of dirt/sand and throw it the air. you can see which way the winds blows. after that, pick a leaf from the grass and let it go in the air, you will see, it happened to be blown by the same direction of the wind as the sand does. due to all this, the main reason why you get lost is because, these spirits might be making you confused and go the wrong way. so now, the only way to get out from this situation is, follow the direction that opposes the wind. real wicked huh? how wonderful if our Creator. by giving us brains to use it properly and meaningfully.

seriously, im feeling rather restless and confuse of myself. im just afraid of what i might face sooner or later. i might wanna believe elle's prediction, but i might be afraid that it was all in vain. cause boys are jerks. get that straight. seriously. mommy thinks likewise, she likes someone who have a career and who have a future. thats a part of me, but not totally.i mean,im not ready for such big deal kind of person, i want someone whom can make me laugh out loud without even care people around me,someone i can be comfortable with and someone whom i feel that appearance dont matter and someone who dont always thinks about himself (looks,branded stuff,hair,current fashion),someone who cares, atleast. so thats me.
oh well, lets see me fly high and i hope for the best. :)

trip to johore with the help of zainal.

2009-07-12T11:27:00.002+08:00

damn. i do not know where to start. yesterday was super duper AWKWARD and uncomfortable.
okay, about 2.30pm plus, zainal waited under my void deck carpark to pick my parents up to sent us to my wak's place and that is TAMAN PERLING,JOHORE. so, yeah..we ride his car and everything. on the way there, my dad talked non-stop to him. which wasnt surprising, cause my dad loves to talk to people. no matter he knows them or not. so to say, zainal is the second guy i introduce SOLIDLY to parents. so, yeah. no biggy.
after he sent DIRECTLY infront of my aunts house, he do want to go in to have a drink or something, maybe because he's shy or somthing. idk. but, really, i told him, he dont have to sent us directly infront of the house, he can stop us somewhere at Larkin of what, so my parents and i can take a cab, but zainal insist of sending us to the house, so we have no exception then.
after he sent there, my parents was worried sake that he was not able to go back home. since he is not familiar with the road, so we tried calling him and end up, he's already at the custom on the way home. pheww. lucky he didnt get lost. then he call back saying that he went to eat, and drive around then go back home. okay.
now the weird thing i cant stop thinking is that.
MOMMY HAVE A CRUSH ON ZAINAL.
which is a NO-NO.
i mean, when my mom likes that someone..she will drag about it, asking me questions about him, and trying to matchy makey.
which is like, WHAT THE HELL.
my mommy knows, which i told her RAPIDLY that me and him is nothing but my classmates.
no biggy.
but mommy and ayah still insist of asking me.
and i hear ayah told mommy this:
why is he so nice in sending us here? if other people, they would not even want to.
and i get to hear what mommy whisper to ayah:
maybe that guy likes nana, thats why he is so good in sending us till the front house.
and ayah whisper back:
yeah, i thought so. or not, nobody would be that nice in sending us here.

OMG. mommy and ayah,totally got the wrong thinking mannn.
OMG. now, my life in classroom would be so awkward and so weird.
hopefully it wont be that way. cause me and him ARE TOTALLY SO NEUTRAL. but that was my feelings tho. me and him are nothing. but im not sure about himself. cause elle keep on telling me that he seems to check me out at school or when we're having class. WHICH IS SO...gross.
hahahahah.
omg.
i like someone else in school but not him.
and now, im excited to go to school and looking forward to atleast bump to that someone whom i like. but no worries, i will meet him up anyways.
hehehe:))))))

MJ IS A REALLY GOOD LOOKING MAN.

2009-07-11T09:20:00.004+08:00

MY LIPS LIKE SUGARRRRRRRRRR!!!!!! haha!

a post response to, you know who.

seriously, i dont know why haidah is keep on pushing me.
OLD FLAMES ARE BETTER THEN NEW FLAMES.
its something like that- i think, i dont know.
its not like im literally in taylor swift's love story music video. can't you see that its irony. totally ironic another words. sigh. im not literally in love or something.
in other words,im NOT.
HAHA. now i know WHAT YOURE THINKING/ MEAN/ WANT ALREADY.
see,stuff like this must do reverse psychology and you will get the answer that you want from him. haha. jengjengjeng and the tiny secret in your heart is revealed! :)
i think, im learning to accept that being a single is so effing COOL.
its LIKE SO COOL, like c-o-o-l.
1. flirt with guys.
2. flirt with gays. (i loike!)
3. free to roam anywhere i want too.
4. no restriction.
5. i can go CRAZY as i want too.
so im gonna make this post a real nice one cause, i got MJ's vid down there.(show as a respect)
haha. OHYA-HAVE YOU GUYS WATCH MOI MOI PALABOY? haha. lut introduce it to me and elle. hilarious tho. hehehe. should check it out. :)
OKAY BACK:
so seriously i feel bad in texting you like sort of rude to you yesterday. its not my intention and my mommy didn teach me to be rude, i told her about it and she said: just be nice will you. biar orang nak buat ape2 kat kite,asalkn kite tak balas balik dan kite mesti sabar.
so, see. sorry for yesterday tho, not sure why im saying sorry. maybe because im being rude i think. and while chatting with you too. i feel like i spat on your face yesterday.

oh well.
I CLOSE MY EYES AND THE FLASHBACK STARTED TO STANDING THERE.

NO STRING ATTACH DUDE,

2009-07-10T23:40:00.003+08:00

this is so bad resistor breadboard of mine!
i got 7/10 for this shit!
FUCK'S SAKE! stupid lecturer of mine, all my hard work went inside the drain. :(
first we need to stuck the resistor (the one like small thing stuck on the breadboard) and then we need to melt the solenoid on the end of the resistor butt so that i can use a cutter and shorten the endings.
OMG.
OBVIOUSLY I DID MELT IT PROPERLY, THIS IS MY FIRST TIME DOING MAN'S WORK! hurghhh!!!
have mercy.
oh well. who cares!
boo!
nice looking piece of work huh!:)

OKAY. I BET ELLE GONNA COMMENT ON THIS WHEN I GET TO SCHOOL ON MONDAY NEXT WEEK.
i literally need help from zainal to sent me my mom and dad to larkin,JB tmr with his car.
omg.
i shall not elaborate and this was like, MY LAST OF THE LIST IDEA MAN.
cause im not going there by foot. NO WHERE. the prob is my aunt is not gonna come tmr to wak's house so we got no vehicle. so,
zainal is the only way.
anyway,he said okay and he abit paiseh to meet my parents which is weird.
idk why.
so yeah.
lets see how tmr goes. OKAY.

and by the way! he's not online!!
thats so disheartening! so sadd!!
:(((((((((((((((((((((
col.
(crying out loud-my own version)

CALL ME YOUR SUGARRRRRRR!!!

2009-07-10T17:55:00.007+08:00

this is so funny. today im suppose to have a study "DATE" with Muhd Luthafiz. hahaha. (shuddup elle) haha. he gonna teach me autocad assignment 7.
omg. he do it so fast. and the funny thing is that he is playing CS (counter strike) while teaching me. haha. Im SO dumb at it and he doing it with ease. sooooooooo embarassing and moreover his friends was over there around us. i think they also think that im so dumb. OMG. so fucking pure embarass mannn. haha. but most of it he do for me. haha. funny right. plus embarassing. haha. actually, he cant teach me after school today and he msg me about it. not sure why. but the day before i force him to come and teach me. so since he said just now that he was unable too, so ME being petty abit i said. "i dont want to frend you anymore." and then he said "alahh dont like this lahh." hahahahahah. AND THE MOST FUNNY PART is that, he suddenly change his plans and come after school to teach me. AWWW. hahah. thanks so much lut!! HEHE. (shuddup elle, i know youre laughing)

haha. im suppose to study with Haiqal too today. but since my body builder bouncer friend of mine need to work today, so i cant go study with him. but he say, if i need help, he will be staying after school and will teach me. AWWW. How caring is my guy frends. plus they are so clever. haiz.
so nice, now i got alot of study dates to attend too.
hehe.
one with Farid.
one with Lut.
one with Haiqal.
one with Fatin.
haha.
cool huh.
hehehehehehehehhehehhehehehehehhehehe.

anddd today i met up with the Elites along the way in library just now, haha. the minute i saw Latiff i give him this one big hug. awww! i miss latiff now. and weixing too. haha.
and Hazmi was there too with his army clothes. haha, and you know what he said to me?
"IS THE MAT-DETECTOR THING WORKING??"
haha, thanks lah eh, all my elites clique call me MINAH NOW.
so im their favourite minah. haha. happy to be happy. haahahaha.

andddddddddddddd YOU KNOW WHAT!?
I THINK I HAVE A CRUSH ON THE TEMPERATURE TAKING BOY AT MY SCHOOL NEAR THE SCHOOL ATRIUM.
haha. not the banglas eh, tolong ehh. haha.
no luh, this is merepek. i cant even see his face behind his mask. hahaha.
JUST THAT THIS MORNING i was late to class and rushing to my class, then he talk to me while taking my temp, he ask.."IS THAT SKULLCANDY HEADPHONES, WHERE YOU GET IT?" in excited tone. and i was blushing that i mumble something to him. bet he cant hear. HAHA. LIKE "O""M""G".
hahahahhaha.

so overall. my day was funny today. totally funny. im planing to scratch zainal's car, cause he is not helping me at all. tell you in the next post. IM SO GONNA DAMAGE HIS CAR! hmph! so my aunt's coming later with her kids, tmr going jb. tonight go study with farid.

SEE ME FLY HIGH ABOVE MY TEST MARKS DUE TO STUDY DATES!

WATCH THIS!

2009-07-09T10:30:00.001+08:00

COURTESY OF ELLE. :)))))

"sebagai manusia,kita sayang pada mu"

2009-07-08T09:27:00.002+08:00

gosh these three books are HEAVEN man. i love it to the core!! ive read the first two and now im at the third book! HOW AWESOME! yesterday evening when im on the way home from school, i ALMOST cried in he train reading HIJAB SANG PENCINTA! omg, how embarassing, i think the aunty infront of me was staring at me seh. HAHA. who cares! haha, i love the book! i love i love i love i love, THE BOOK!!! aww, can you see LAKSAMANA SUNAN in the front cover of the HIJAB SANG PENCINTA book! HOW DASHING IS HE! OMG! HE IS SO HANDSOME AND SO..SOO..SOOOOO. OMG! im lost of words. anyway, you guys really need to read this book man, it worth it, and allows you turn over to the brighter side. seriously. go read man. IT WORTH IT. REALLY.

ANYWAY. last two days ive been studying with farid at the blocks around the YISHUN JC. im not sure where but i studied with him and yesterday i studied with him and fatin. wow, im tired but the only thing that made me go there is to study lor. cause i cant study at home. the mood is not there and i got alot of distractions. no matter how tired i am, i still think studying outside is muc more better than at home. so last two days i went home about 11pm plus, but is okay tho, farid sent me home till my block lift there! HAHA! SO COOL RIGHT! haha thanks farid!! :) lain kali kalau belajar same same kau sent aku lagi k?? hehe.
okay, im off to school now. and im off to work after school. HAHA. so hectic my scedule, cause i need money. IM JUST WONDERING THAT I DO NOT HAVE A TME REST FOR MYSELF. poor me.
haha. till we meet again. thanks for reading peeps!

THIS IS A LOVE STORY BABY PLEASE SAY YES!

2009-07-08T09:10:00.005+08:00

we are totally bored. BUT NP LIB IS THE BEST whoowhoot!

see where my finger points too. HAHAHA.

SECONDS before our eltech stupid presentation. HAHA.

national lib @ bugis with jeremy,elle, and myself. (with darren too)

if ONLY the national lib is my second home. OH NO, LOFT IS MY SECOND HOME, national lib shall be my THIRD home.

okay this is past few days fotoes, just that im so freaking lazy to update, i only update my tag board. haha. ELLE ELLE ELLE ELLE ELLE ELLE ELLE ELLE ELLE ELLE ELLE ELLE ELLE ELLE ELLE ELLE ELLE ELLE ELLE ELLE! haha. ton of photes with her. enjoy!

what happen yesterday is that we had the IS COMMT presentation, the one that i have to interview a foreign person. which i interviewed already, cause banquet have tons of foreigners to choose from. ahah. and the funny part is that, my group members are not entirely prepared. HAHA. especially lut hafiz. haha. NICE RIGHT THE NAME:LUT HAFIZ. haha he had not really finish up his presentation and he do not have his foreign frend photo which was hilarious cause he asked me to give him one foto of my fren and i gave FATIN'S PHOTO! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!! haiqal's one is more funny, he's interview was a total made up and he took his FATHER'S photo as the foreigner! hahah! OMG! now that i know, having to group with boys are really fun. haha. this is the group that im the only girl and the other four are boys. the group that i always complaining. BUT IN THE END IM WRONG! THEY ARE BUNCH OF FUNNY PEOPLE! haha. even faris too is funny!! i think he is a joker of the day mann. and lut too. hahah. two very funny people. HAHAHAH! and one nice thing about some of the boys is that, one of them is from ite to poly, im refering to lut. he is so nice and funny and humble and friendly. i mean, if only my class boys are like him, isnt is good? the fresh graduates boys from OLEVELS are all stuck up to the ass, LIKE AS IF THEY ARE SO GOOD AND TALENTED AND CLEVER THAT ABIT OF MINGLING HURTS. crapp. lut is so cool that he ate with me and elle during lunch yesterday after class. moreover he is not my classmates just a groupmate in the IS COMMT CLASS. haiz.
HAHA. NO MATTER I HAD FUN!!

CONCERT RIPIENO 2009 @ VCH.

2009-07-08T08:29:00.008+08:00

i love the elites so freaking much. i love latiff, weixing, matin, don, jeanette, michelle, hazmi and many moreeee. they are so fun, and funny, and so nice people and I LOVE THEM to the hard core. aawww. now i have to make a decision whether i should stay in band or not. thats why latiff said, he asked me to think it over the break and see whether i really want to join band for real. OH WELL. i dont know. im not sure. ITS IN THE MIDDLE. oh crap.
anyway. i really had fun during the concert day.
ok whatever, now my name is already, confirm. MINAH in band. you guys can check thru my facebook profile. they sent this really funny wall msg there and said anything related to minah. WHICH IS HILARIOUS. omg, i love them man. now hazmi is already our alumni, the one who is botak. he just recently got to army. and latiff is third year now, and he's stepping down. and IM GONNA MISS THEM. so the concert however only naz and fatin went cause, i dont really want anybody else to come because-i just dont want too. HAHA. oh well. stare at the pic ppl.
MUAHH. XD

#$%%&%^*$$

2009-07-03T21:57:00.002+08:00

thank you so much for deleting me.

dont worry, i delete you too.

so tmr is my concert,
no excitement anything at all.
seriously.
IM RESTLESS AS SHIT.
wish me luck.
(i mean it)

DON'T TELL MY MOM!

2009-07-01T23:51:00.003+08:00

MUM'S KITCHEN CATERING:

this is disturbing. i know.

kesian anching. he cant work with us just now. haha.

i look like mak nenek mann.

ipin carrying our lunch. HAHA.

I LOVE THIS PIC AND I DONT KNOW WHY! HAHA!

poor thing fatin, she was trying to tell us something, but cant seem to understand herr. haha!

OH MY, IM TIRED OF TYPING NOW, CAUSE MY PILLOW IS WAITING FOR ME THERE.
so see the pics. ask me questions and i'll answer later. this is catering that i worked just now. dont tell my mom cause i skipped school just to go to work. and i manage to see LEE KUAN YEW just now.
I LOVE MUM KITCHEN'S MANAGER: MR SYAH.
HE IS SO EFFING NICE AND I DONT WANT TO ELABORATE ON THAT CAUSE, HE IS SO NICE.
NICER THAN SHERATON TOWERS MANAGERS!
suck that you big sucker balls!
HAHA.
and this standing buffet is different than i encounter while in ST.
st sucks anyway.
WE GOT TO EAT FREE WILLINGLY WITH THE MANAGERS GREEN LIGHT IN MUMS KITCHEN CATERING JUST NOW!
how awesome.
and now my arm is aching cause ive been doing the standing cocktail all the way.
so peace out peeps.
enjoy staring at the pics.
MUU-ARRRHHHHHHHH!
peace yall.

blue wee mee hee shitt eee.

2009-07-01T00:34:00.002+08:00

this photo looks good?
i mean, edit and everything?
i dont think so man. im sort of dont like it.
look so, yucks.
dont you think so?
whatever shitknot.
boo. keep on staring peeps.

im off reading HIJAB SANG PENCINTA.
im in love with Laksamana Sunan. (: